In the last 4 yrs, i think i've matured so much that I started learning to pay attention to more people and appreciate the smaller things I've come to know off.

When i was in sec and poly, i didnt care much abt the ppl i met in school.. probably i was ignorant with abit of attitude problem and heck care attitude. I got angry easily, especially when ppl i love gets bullied. I have this angsty attitude and i didnt seemed to care about ppl esp acquaintances and ppl that r just hi-bye to me. Come to think of it, those were one of the periods where we make friends that would usually last a lifetime. Probably the main reason i could think of, was that i was going through a tough time at home and didnt know how not to be angry with things happening ard me. Gradually i've learnt to let go of the unhappy things and look more on the bright side. I think i've been rather optimistic. Lucky to have met ppl like d6, the netballers where i still keep in contact, my poly gang and ppl who puts in effort to be my friend after my younger days.

In uni, i didnt have an IS clique unlike everyone else in my IS school. I just dun click with most of them, so i most definitely think i got off to a wrong start in my first 2 years. I was doubtful and apprehensive towards most ppl, which is probably y i didnt have very close IS uni friends now. But luckily in year 3 and 4, i started not to care so much abt what ppl do, and care more abt wat i can do. I think this sparked the little change. started caring and showing interest in ppl whom i'd like to be friends with for a lifetime. Nice pple like maoyuan, edwin, jialing, e S1CS gang - sharon, june, etc etc. And of coz my biz school clique. Biz ppl are nice to hang out with. They really know how to enjoy and have fun.. I can say that coz I secretly wanted to be a biz student when I applied for 5MU but 4 yrs later I think i'm better off in IS. I do feel lucky to have met some of the nicest ppl in uni, like clarence, xuehui, dave, june, & mitch. Each of the gatherings with them are really like family gatherings. We do family kinda activities like steamboat, bbq, clubbing, drinking at one another's place, and they absolutely love mahjong (although i always do not turn up).

b4 my dear junnie left for japan, she wrote me a letter and it made me tear. I didnt realise that there is this positive energy that could encourage her and might be handy in helping her get thru tough times. Perhaps she was aware of wat happened to me from pri school to my uni days, and that added marks to my motivating story. Thanks for the letter junnie, it means alot alot to me. Really hope u're doing well in Japan now.

Of coz, there are also disappointing times where u felt that u have put in effort and the recieving party is not exactly reciprocating. It takes a few tries to finally give up and let go of such pple. I'm gonna leave it to fate to work out the rest for me, for those that I've really given a chance and felt that it was time wasted. They appear are highly selective in terms of friends and I sincerely do wish them all the best despite the things that they have done. Guess they were not worth the effort all along.

Recently I've discovered the power of taking a genuine and sincere interest in people. When I'm engaged in that mode, its easy to talk abt what i really feel and get the message across. I've also recently just finish reading the l4st lecture by R. P4usch.. and two of my fav lessons in the book talks about brick walls and anger.

1. brick walls are there for a reason, for u to show how badly u want something.
2. If u're angry with a person, it means u havent been patient enuf for them to show their kind side.

With these wise words, its a test of my patience. It brings my understanding of people i meet to a new level. Hope i will have the courage and patience to tear down brick walls that are extreme and out to make ur life difficult. Together with my new found attitude of sincerity, I hope i can overcome the more difficulties, and hopefully survive better in the corporate world.

Of all the ppl i've met, I really cherish each and everyone of them. Esp friends who really go an extra mile to help me out/ doing special things for me, or even just spending time hearing me rant. Entering a new phase in life, I hope to meet really nice friends at work too.

okay, bedtime.

Labels: lessons, life

One of my best-est friends since pri school flew off to japan late last month for her new job. Really admire her courage and strength for always being so independent. Hope she excels well in it!

This is finally my last free week before i start working the 14th june.. nothing much special is being planned. Except that i wanna go for the pixar exhibition at science centre before starting work.

Feeling pretty excited abt work actually, got news that i'm going be in new york city for a 4 weeks training. Due to this training, I will be missing many other things that I was rather concerned about..

1. Commencement - after 4 hard yrs of studying, I'm going to miss my own graduation ceremony. no picture wit me n my family, and my friends :((((((
2. J4y Ch0u concert - I tried for 1.5 hours when they released the tix and i managed to get 2, so many ppl couldnt get their tix u know. Now i have to give them up coz I'm just not going to be in SG :((
3. BKK - was supposed to go on 1st july, but i'm giving up this trip also due to the early start date of my employment.... not exactly due to the training in nyc.
4. yuanru's bday - she really up the bar for my bday last yr.. think i need to find some ideas to make it up to her this yr, also as part of making up for her bday last yr..

I hope i can manage my work well, have many new friends and meet wonderful ppl who can guide me thru the longest phase of my next life. Will be working hard to achieve the dreams that me and baby has thot abt. Ganbatte to all my friends who is starting work soon/has started work! :)

Labels: life, work

After my exams on the first day of the exam week, I was practically relaxing and enjoying myself until the fling event, - where all of us officially celebrated our after exams party on april 20th. Damn i had a great time, ktv-ing with vodka in the afternoon, dinner at bk and more drinks, wine and laughter at a gsr before heading to supper club.

clar, karen, dave, xue hui, me



love this bunch of ppl + mitch.

Immediately after i reached home that very nite, I was supposed to leave home for phuket with my sec school friends. Hahahah I didnt pack at all and was lying on the floor until 5am when i decide to start packing. But i only forgot to bring toothpaste.. damn i puked twice when i was abt to leave the house.. freaking alcohol. I hate it.

Phuket was fun.. love the sea and the sand but not the sun. So hot i had to keep bathing. I realised i didnt bring enuf clothes to change for a 3 day 2 nite trip..



the trip ppl in the hotel getting ready to go out for massage.



i dun like the fishes.. they bite



cute little hermit crab we saw on the beach



me n jamie at the place where leonardo filmed the famous movie.

i'm tired now. will post part 2 when i'm feeling better.

Labels: holidays, party