today is my birthday... but since 1159pm last nite, i havent been feeling happy at all. i have no idea why.. i dun want this day to come so soon, and suddenly its here i kinda duno how to react to it.. i keep thinkin that this cannot be true, i cannot be 21 yr old already... duno y i'm feeling down on a simple day where i should just smile as i see sms-es coming in....

til now no one managed to make me smile enough to make me feel fine and happy.

mayb someone should just call me and chat with me to cheer me up. but not many pple will call la. i'm feeling down not becoz baby did something wrong or wat. i guess he is meeting me later to bring me for dinner or something.. but i'm not sure.

i juz dun have the mood. haiz. i dun wan my birthday to end in such a depressing state.

funny thing is that, i've a proj due ytd 5pm. i didnt manage to finish so i 'courageously' hand up today. i had a presentation this morning too, at 830. i reach skool at 8am, and it kinda sucks to wake up at 615am on ur bday. the presentation went fine, i speak way too fast and didnt stutter much. then i went on to meet uncle heng for lunch and then to do my proj. thanks uncle heng for the present too. he manage to get one nice top from topshop for me as he couldnt make it for my chalet on sunday. then i handed in my proj.. and i'm kinda unofficially free til the end of this sem. perhaps i have one or two tiny assignment to do next week.. but other then that.. i have no exams..

duno is this somekinda delusional depression or wat. imagine not even feeling happy after getting over 2 worst assignments this week. yawnz.. and weirdest thing.. feeling so anti-climax abt my birthday.... big crossover, but nothing interests me today. sigh.

mayb its due to the fact i have nothing to look forward to today? sian.

:(