its sad.. when u feel so useless.

i hope the earthquake or watever. the tsunamis. hit me. bring me to whr all the other pple who dun deserve to die goes.

i'm the one who deserved to die. dun give me another chance.

when i read phuay's blog. somehow, i wished all those pple who died, in those natural disasters... i hope it was me. perhaps that'll make everybody happier.

feel so useless. y does it have to be me. y is everything at home affecting everything else that shouldnt be relevant...

felt like i should get hit by a car or something. n be left alone to die.

i'm a sadist today. n tml n the day after. n the week after.

sorry i brought so much trouble to all the pple i know. esp u.

i know that this should be the last line you're goin to draw.

i know its useless to say 'sorry', when i could try to help in watever way i can, since i hav 2 hands, 2 legs, n a working mind.

i know u're really really pissed off.

i know i'm stubborn. but i neva meant to cause u any troubles.

i'm feelin pessimistic. perhaps u would really be more peaceful, worry n trouble free w/o me yeah? if dats the case, i'm fine wif u leaving me. if u would be happy, i dun mind sacrificing.

could see tensions rising in the last few days. but i kept quiet.

i'm the one in the wrong. i cun possible make a big fuss outta watever thing i that made the person not happy abt.

feel like crying.

i'm gone.

to see the person u love happy, is the best thing u can give. even if u're not by their side.