its sad.. when u feel so useless.

i hope the earthquake or watever. the tsunamis. hit me. bring me to whr all the other pple who dun deserve to die goes.

i'm the one who deserved to die. dun give me another chance.

when i read phuay's blog. somehow, i wished all those pple who died, in those natural disasters... i hope it was me. perhaps that'll make everybody happier.

feel so useless. y does it have to be me. y is everything at home affecting everything else that shouldnt be relevant...

felt like i should get hit by a car or something. n be left alone to die.

i'm a sadist today. n tml n the day after. n the week after.

sorry i brought so much trouble to all the pple i know. esp u.

i know that this should be the last line you're goin to draw.

i know its useless to say 'sorry', when i could try to help in watever way i can, since i hav 2 hands, 2 legs, n a working mind.

i know u're really really pissed off.

i know i'm stubborn. but i neva meant to cause u any troubles.

i'm feelin pessimistic. perhaps u would really be more peaceful, worry n trouble free w/o me yeah? if dats the case, i'm fine wif u leaving me. if u would be happy, i dun mind sacrificing.

could see tensions rising in the last few days. but i kept quiet.

i'm the one in the wrong. i cun possible make a big fuss outta watever thing i that made the person not happy abt.

feel like crying.

i'm gone.

to see the person u love happy, is the best thing u can give. even if u're not by their side.

Sat:
Thanks my dear.

For bringing me out on sat! love u to bits! Hah!. I was complaining of staying at home the whole week n I was really bored. So I ask if he was gonna bring me out to town to shop. Yeah he agreed so n we took bus n train to city hall. Hehe. So exciting huh.

Yeah ruoning was saying, take train very romantic ma. But I think take bus more romantic. Lol :X we wenta sakae suntec for sushi. Its so deserted.

N we wenta levi's to get a top each. N he bought 2 autoart models. RX 8. duh. Caught bogeyman at eng wah. Stupid show. Waste of money. Wanted to catch the eye 10 n that boy said he wanted to bring his mom for that movie. Ok. Mayb I should go catch wif my frens. Haha.

after movie, we went jp, n went home.

Sun:
Dear took last minute leave on sun, as he was goin test drive at mazda. So we got up early n wenta macpherson for test drive. Alright, the car is kinda cool. But I keep thinking its slower than his previous ride. The Accord Euro R. felt so helpless in the backseat. Yeah u cun open the back seat on ur own. Definitely need to open the front seat first then the person in the back can come out. N the window is so small. I'll juz need time to get accustomed to the car when it arrives. Troublesome to get in n out of the car even in the front seat. Argghh. It's a selfish car. :(
Went for lunch near the showroom. Duck rice. Then we took a bus 62 to aljunied n took train back to jp. Wenta jp to buy some food n bubble tea.

Then I caught the 'house of fury' at 530pm. Well it's the cast that attracts me more than the storyline. Cute movie. Walked ard jp and then went home.

I won a bet but somebody didn't really honour the winnings/words of the bet. BoO!

Overall. I had fun. Thanks for everything. :)

Mon:
Basically, I woke up stayed at dx's home alone whole day. Study, rot, surf net, radio, mtv, n tried to concentrate on studying. He wasn't home as he's at work.

I got so restless n lack energy coz I didn't eat anything proper the whole day, til 11pm after watching 'desperate housewives' on tv. Yeah. Being lazy will make u slim down, but it makes u so so restless. I almost didn't have the energy to make it to the food court, which is like 10 blocks away.

Tried to study whole day, til abt 3am. Ok there's really nothing much to study for FME, except read the examples n going thru the same stack of notes over and over again.

Yeah I had the radio on, coz I was bored n feeling lonely. So it kinda hampered my time in studying. Read thru the notes twice only. Textbook examples.. sighz. No answers. I hate it.

Hope the test wouldn't be so difficult.

Tues:
Woken up by an sms. N I couldn't stop smiling after dat. well, I couldn't slp as well. I'm not blaming the person who sent the sms, if I didn't receive such as sms, I think i'll find fault and blame the person. Haha. So I got up after tossing n turning in bed at ard 10 plus. Watched tv tv n more tv. Surf net for an hr after 1pm. No mood to study.

surfed frenster, waiting to see who wrote 2 testimonials for me. Couldn't check it for 2 consecutive days as frenster is screwed, as always. then I finally saw those testimonials. It made me laugh. Somebody called me a drunkard!

so I analysed wif ah tingz, on how I keep getting drunk, yeah it's a stupid topic. N I heard she said she felt uncomfortable after one or two drinks, n dats wat stops her from drinking further. So the truth is, I got some alcohol-lag inside of me. I'll like get the effects from those alcohol only when I get to the 4th drink. Lol. Dats bad, becoz everything juz comes all at once, n I'm too weak to fight the effects of going drunk. N dats y I got drunk! I promise myself not to get drunk again the next time I go. Hahahah.

Watching mtv the whole day. Waiting for nice songs. Clubbing mood? :X

But I guess there's alrdy a high chance I'll flunk the 'minutes' test, although I heard it is easy for most pple. I'm bad at doing summary and some kinda report or functional writing. Sighz. Get me thru to Thursday asap.

Alright. Gd luck for all those taking tests esp. FME tml!

Name : Ang Yi Wen, Agnes
Birthday : 14 11 1985
Birthplace : KK hospital
Current Location : Western part of Singapore
Eye Color : Black
Hair Color : BLACK!
Horoscope : Scorpio

Current mood: Relaxed
Current music: Candy Shop ? 50 cent ft. Olivia
Current taste: null
Current hair: kinda long for a short-haired me
Current clothes: netball shorts, white tee
Current smell: lux shower smell. Yeah the purple one.
Current desktop picture: erm? RX 8? :( boo!
Current book: Beckham?s my side, Lee Kuan Yew.
Current color of toenails: none for 9 toenails. Red for the last one. It was bleeding profusely.
Current worry: Job? N when I get to club again.
Current crush: 2. :X crush on hunks counted?
Current time: 1250pm
Current hate: Waking up/ Bedtime.

Favorite Music : Hiphop, R&B, Dance
Favourite Color: blue, green, white, black
Favourite TV Show : Guess x3, whose line is it anyway, who wants to be a millionaire
Favourite Song : soldier ? destiny?s child
Favourite Language : means I can speak in them or I like to hear? English n Chinese I guess.
Favourite Food: chocolates.
Favourite drink: Ice milo, vanilla coke!
Favourite subject in School : Geography/ Emath (Sec skool)
Favourite Weekend Activity : Club! Shop! Eat!
Favourite Ice Cream Flavor : PepperMint chip

What is
The first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning : What time is it?
The last image/thought you go to sleep with : ??cun remember. I think abt a lot of things.
The first feature you notice in the opposite sex : eyes
The best sport : basketball? Em.. netball.
Your best feature : none. Nice pair of legs? haha
Your bedtime : 2am
Your greatest fear : losing pple I love
Your most missed memory : sec 1 til now.

Do you
Take a shower everyday? : Yes
Have a(any) crush(es)? : answered dat.
Do you think you've been in love? : Yes.
Want to get married : Not so soon. Not in the next 3 years. Marriage is like the death of courtship.
Kinda Believe in yourself? : Yes
Have any piercings? : 2. intending to get more.
Get motion sickness? : All the time.
Get along with your parents? : Yeah. Dun tok much = dun quarrel much. So I guess so.
Like thunderstorms? : Yeah! N I love rainy day! :)
Age you hope to be married : after 23
Number and Names of Children : 2. Julian. Haven?t thot of the other one.
Dream Wedding : convoy of cars, at nice hotel.
How do you want to die? : peacefully. Without pain
What do you want to be when you grow up? : Someone rich. Preferably Lady BOSS.
What country would you most like to visit? : Egypt

Opposite sex
Best eye color? : brown
Best hair color? : anything
Short or long hair? : Short!
Best height? : > 175
Best weight? : < 70
Best articles of clothing? : tshirt / jeans/ shoes or shirt/ pants/ shoes. :)

Are you a
Druggy: No
Daydreamer: yupp
Sarcastic: towards everyone
Goody-goody: seldom
Devil: all the time
Shy: nope
Talkative: em? u guys can decide. But I think I am. :X
Adventurous: once a while
Joker: yeah

Love and stuff
First crush: Pri 5
First kiss: Pri 5 :X
Single or attached?: Attached but still available :X
Ever been in love?: stupid question
Do you believe in love at first sight?: once a while, I do. but I also strongly believe dat u can develop feelins aka fall in love wif a person over time.
Describe your ideal significant other: Someone who makes me smile all the time. Get cracked up by my jokes, loves spending time wif me. Makes an effort to be wif me even for a short while. Must be gentleman as well. And must be sweet. Must must must give me a sense of security. I think my frens can vouch for dat. Haha. Ok its ideal wat. So I?ll add in, handsome, gd looking, humourous, etc etc. n well, no such guys exist in reality. BoO!
Are you still a virgin/had sex? : No n Yes. Wahahhah. Believe wat I say?

Have I ever
Smoke?: at times.
Do drugs?: no way. Drugs spoil ur brain.
Play an instrument?: em, tried playing but noises came out instead of music. Considered?
---> Guitar.
Believe there is life on other planets?: Yupp. I believe in aliens n martians.
Remember your first love?: Yes. Not so clearly but yes.
Still love him/her: No! as a lover. Yes as a fren.
Read the newspaper?: always
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: yeah.
Believe in miracles?: Yes
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: NO!
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: NOPE. I flare up at every instance I get.
Consider love a mistake?: abit.
Like the taste of alcohol?: not bad wat.
Believe in astrology?: absolutely. I used it to decipher n understand pple ard me including myself.
Believe in magic?: NO. its juz gimmicks n tricks dat u haven?t learnt. So its really simple.
Believe in god?: Buddha
Do well in school?: Sec skool
Have a secret crush?: yeah. At least 4 but not at the same time obviously :X
Care about looks? : yeah. Care only abt my own looks.

oh yeah. was on my way to tamp mrt when they pple said :"no train goin from jurong east to queenstown."

n i thot "wat the hell? maintainence meh? so weird when in the day everyone's travelling."

then heard from my bro an accident occur at buona vista mrt. somebody jump down on the railway track n got hit by the train. i thot somebody committed suicide again. but no. juz heard from the news dat the malay guy dropped his shoes on the track. n he jumped down intending to pick it up. but got hit n killed by the train.

kaoz. watch for oncoming vehicles b4 walking/jumping at least......

dun mean to make fun of him. its not a joke. but at least dats the least u could do right? attempting something so dangerous. weird man.

i'll start from wed nite. went over to abi's place to study wif rae. at 11pm. til 6am in the morning.

still remember. the time i told 2 person i goin out, they went :"GOING WHEREEEEEEE"

lol. in caps somemore. wahahha. funny.

in btw studying, had strawberry wif choc! damn it was gd! n i had pringles.



n then i had mee goreng wif egg.

thanks abi. that meal was great. i think she showed her xian qi liang mu sight. lol. makings of a gd wife. :P no wonder she's my wifeyyy.. hehe :)

i tried to take pics of them studying. but i wasnt allowed to. then....



this pretty girl took her own pic -__-".... bth.

ok i was so busy eating all the time, by 7am, i had only done 5 slides of a page. but we had finish 2 cans of coke, half the pringles, all the strawberry n meegoreng. :X

tingz came to join us for gossips after having fun at chinablack. which was initially all of our plan until we decided to go study.



n at 7am, we're all at the coffeeshop wif super nice bee hoon, eating breakfast n drinking milo peng. ----> not "biscuits(bing)" its "ice".



my breakfast.

then went home to slp til 1145. woke up prepare n wenta skool for csb. had fun in the lesson. got back the chairperson marks. wasnt as bad as i thot it will be. :)

then was practising on how to write the minutes, i.e. underlining the right points. but i got it all wrong! booooOOOOO! phuay took pics of me during the consultation wif jh mama. kaozz... she really bth me.. but the fact is dat i thot everything was impt... :X lol. thanks for ya patience anyway. as i think i did better in the later part.

went home. packed bag. wenta dx's place. watch teebeeee..... n slp..

woke up today, wenta tampines to visit my grandpa. he was fatter alrdy, since the last time i saw him. n he's funny. :)

my bro n mum on train.



my ah ma n ah gong. :))



they're cute. hehhee..

yupp. was finding my way ard tampines when i decided to call sleepyhead for directions. yeah, like i said. sleepyhead was really slping when i called. -___-

n didnt reply sms til like 4 hours later. when i was abt to reach home...

so i got home n chatted wif the baozz minus jh mama. they're so funny. n i think i'm starting to miss them...

remember i asked ms miao if she will miss me.. when we're goin to meet the next day.. :X n she said:"one day only.."

wah lao one day also i will start missing everybody le la.. lol. dun believe me.. ahhaha....

ok now i'm watching tv n rotting....

i have a feeling quarrels will come in the next few days or so. i'm goin crazy staying at home!!!.

no car = no going out.

n i'm not very happy wif dat thought. the stupid car better come faster.... :(((


sighzzz.. hopefully i'll get to pull him out on the streets tml.. if not. then i shall stay at his place to study hard. but then again i'll be tempted to play PS2 instead of trying FME. sighhzzz. so i guess i'll study on monday then. wahahha. :X

i fucking hate pple who take advantage of all the nice pple....

all the nice pple r there to lend u a helpin hand, help u get ur things faster..

n u fuckingly selfishly take ur own sweet time when ur things are done?

knnbccb. bastard. i will say this only once.



dun ever expect to hear from us if my boy's bidding is unsuccessful. ccb. make him pissed off for helping u.

n he's so nice to not get angry wif u. sad to say i dun have the gracious heart to forgive pple like dat. dats y i'm always getting pissed at pple. for doin things w/o thinking of other pple. u fucking better get those things done wif quickly. if not... yeah. i'll make sure my boy neva helps u in future.


i'm revengeful n evil. get away if u dun like wat u see here. fcuk off.


alllllllllll u selfish pple! get away from me!!! fucking hellll!!!!

damn. fuck u all selfish pple.

i love dear! he's so nice to me even after i swear at his buddy.

dear:" ok ok dont get so angry y u get so angry ok ok relax la "

me:" no.. i hate it when pple take advantage of u. u so nice they still buay steady. fucking selfish pple. "

dear: " nvm la, dun get so angry, relak ok. as long u treat me gd can alrdy lo."

he's so nice. makes me feel like crying. damn buay song wif those pple. knn.

pui -

u have my almost sympathy for attempting to try to lose a gd fren.

ur fucking loss for losing a fren like dx. although i think dx will still continue to help u. pui. not worth our time. aarrrgghhh...

ok i need to cool it. feel much better after complaining.

i'm outta here.

ruoning n evon at mos burger for dinner on sun nite.



evon n me. she very unwillingly took this photo wif me. see her face? she gave a "wat la, take pics again?" face. lol. fake smile wif me. kaoz.



my fav food from crystal jade. red bean paste duno wat. very nice! like how much i love dao sa bao. :)) anybody wanna buy this for me? it will brighten up my day like how a bubble tea will. hehe :)



some nice tasting fish(in black) which i know looks like worm..
n the red bean thingy! i love it!



somebody dear bought this cough medicine for me a very long long time ago. then i drank like 1/4 of it coz i was coughing madly. then my mum took it away. n she managed to find the same old bottle n got one back for me after i complaint to her for takin the cough medicine away. lol. is it really the same bottle? i abit cannot remember... hm.... hahah :X

ok. end of pics for now. be back wif more later... :)

got a new proj coming right up. happening this wed today!.

its called : Plan B!

its really cute n only wat my dearie n moi dear fren who restricts me to 2 cups of vodka created.

waahahha.

hilarious! plan BBbbbBBBBBBbbbbBBBBBbbbbbBBBBbbb... :P :X


dreamz. wat do i make out of them?


-----> i would say, "ri you shuo xisi. ye you shuo mong".

which means its not a gd thing.

:blehz:

mich juz spoke to me.. asked how i have been....

mich: "i know u feel down but u dun tell us haha"

lol. mich understands how i feel. thanks very much mich. dun worry. :) no matter wat happens, i still love everyone in destiny6. hehe. even w/o the celebrations, dinners etc. i know everyone's busy. n we seldom meet up for dinner or so. but we all care yeah? take care there! cya when u get back to Sg in April! :)

funny thing ;

me: u say 4 cups ok 3 days agoooo

*dazed* - y^ {it's no big deal after all!} ~ says:
okie
l;p;
1/2 alcohol drinks
*dazed* - y^ {it's no big deal after all!} ~ says:
3.5 fruit punch

me:
wahhhhhhh
i cry le la
*dazed* - y^ {boring!} ~ says:
lol
*dazed* - y^ {boring!} ~ says:
haha
*dazed* - y^ {boring!} ~ says:
dun cry la
*dazed* - y^ {boring!} ~ says:
i increase it

me:
.....
*dazed* - y^ {boring!} ~ says:
if u got good performance on wed
*dazed* - y^ {boring!} ~ says:
lol

me:
ahaha!!!!!
me:
performance appraisal
me:
omg

*dazed* - y^ {performance appraisal! 0.5 cup the starting bid} ~ says:
moi nick nice?

-_-"


wei!!!!! MEI LI MAO!!!!! how dare...... i... argue??///?? :(

1.5 2 cups or no clubbing.

sad la. from 4 cups leh. til 2 cups? still gotta see performance appraisal. omg.....

kao.... :(

arrghhh.. no getting drunk anymore or i can neva go clubbing again. :((((

sat n fri was basically a boring day. ms ms ms.

chatted wif rae n abi into wee hours of the morning on sat... very funn conversation...

all i can sum up is, "Milo biscuits ICE", "Beehoon", the ever we-want-to-be-friend-with-him "bartender", lotsa "I love u" exchange. ahahah. fun. :) love u gals.

sun morning, feeling restless...asked dx to go jp.

his reply: "Ni Lai Jie Wo".
me(lol already) :"OK ok, hao la hao la. wo qu jie ni lo."

he so cute right. lol.

then i bought bbt at boon lay shoppin centre b4 headin to his house. watch avril's thingy on scv, thus was late meetin ruoning n evon for dinner. lol. the stomach excuse is valid still. coz i was really feelin unwell n so i stayed at his place a little longer to see if i can muster the feelin to go bomb the toilet. but i didnt.

went mos for dinner. or snacks actually. first time ruoning asked us out. all the time was me n evon initiating a meetup. but this very first time is ruoning. surprising! hoho. :) was fun.

bought lotsa stuffs. old chang kee, sushi, snacks to dx's home. then i spent the time playin naruto 2 on PS2. i juz couldnt win the stupid itachi, sasuke's bro. stupid game.

woke up n wenta skool for lunch, carryin the stupid heavy laptop due for return this month. hoping to see the handsome guy in lab.

hahah :X he's handsome, n he's in the lab we r always in. surprised to see so many pple still rushin for their fyp, when we alrdy handed up everything, n today's demo as well. -.-

like the whole world hasnt even hand up the proj, we alrdy demo n done wif. kao. fast leh. i got lotsa dates messed up. thinkin 31st was the test, thinkin 31st was monday. thinking thinking thinking... thinking csb test is this week. but no. thinking this is last week for lessons.

mayb the handsome guy is interested in one of us leh. but surely cun be me. wahah. very obvious, the pretty ones in my group has to be kai n ms miao. hehhe. coz i caught him stealin a peek at us as we enter the lab. :) lol. felt a little excited. :X wahahhahha. ok..... kidding.

dear called me up to go his place le. ahahhaa. go fetch him go jp laaa.. so funny.. :) gtg...

no skool tomoro! hehe :))))))

the last time i sat in it. was after proj on thurs MArch 17th 2005 nite. at abt 815 pm. wenta dinner wif dx at queenstown. ate zi char, tofu, veges, n sotong you tiao.

then we went back to my place. then went back to dx's place very early. then... wenta skool on fri, did proj.


til 830pm. then went home. watch tv. n use computer til 2+am.

wenta bed at dat time, as i'm tired...

woke up today... play ms. ate, played, chat. then dx sms me.

"dear my car hand over to vincent alrdy we no more car already so sad"

yeah. i also super sad. :(( feel like i've lost a limb or something.

to dx, mayb he's feelin like he'd lost both legs or something.

poorthing.

wonder how's he going to work le.. :( sadddddddd. comfort me..... please??.... sighzz.....

alright. here's a post for a special person in my life.

my ah ma.

i lived wif my ah ma ever since i was young. til abt pri 4. then i wenta live wif my mum. as a kid, ah ma fed me wif tons of things. one day can have 5 meals. but all to make me chubby n make sure i was never hungry.

then she lived in ang mo kio. now she stays wif me at lakeside. n she's super cute!

i was listening mp3s, and suddenly an Ou De Yang song came up. n i heard her say:"OU de Yang~ ta de ge hao ting hor." its like, how come ah ma also know wat singers etc. muz be the tv commercials la. she told me techno is nice once, when i was listening to 91.3fm on a sat nite. i was eating dinner and i almost fell off my chair.

i thot she'll say something like noisy or wat. but she said not bad leh. lollllll....

lol. n i was eating lunch this afternoon n she rushed me to finish it quickly so i could go downstairs to buy some ice cream for her. raspberry wif bread. those van moving ard, selling ice cream at my block carpark once a day. yeah. she's the one craving for the ice cream. not me. i dun really like to eat ice cream. hehe.

then by the time i rushed downstairs, the ice cream uncle was gone. wahahah.

n she bought some chips n can drinks for me on her way to ntuc juz now.

she cooks dinner for me. noes wat i like to eat. n always cooks them. she's so nice. :)

ah ma i love u~~!!!! ahaha :)

somebody's small arse broke this poor hair clip. :( although its not mine. wahaha.


dx's beautiful white stallion.. too bad its going.. :( i'll feel really sad on the day it will be handed over to the new owner, luckily its dx's gd fren. at least we'll get the chance to see it if we want.


CSb presentation. - very cold inside the lab, so we're out on the bench takin pics n slacking. dats ms miao n me.


phuay n me.


jiahui mama n me. i've got other really funny pics of jh but i wun put them up. gotta help her preserve her image. if i put it up here, her xing xiang will be throughly trashed. coz the pics are really funny and super sassy. but i still dun think it should be seen by outsiders. n unless she gives me her permission to post up the pics here.. wat a shame.


karen the group leader and me.

alright. dats abt it. had lotsa fun taking all the pics. :)

coz i've lost my earrings earrring.....

one side, the right one only.

the black loop earring which i liked very much.. i wun say its my favourite becoz all my earrings are my favourite. all at equal rank...

all my earrings are black.... hehe. n now adays my accessories are black too.

i still have the drunk feeling. like i'm gonna puke any time. although i always say i feel like puking, this time its worser than ever becoz the stupid alcohol still lingers in my body..

have coughs, n wat i think is slight fever.

yeah yeah. everytime i say i have fever right.. but i really think i have leh...

felt like i've slim down this week, since fri, coz i dun eat much, n i keep taking in fluids only.
this morning alone, i've consumed abt one bottle of plain water, one bottle of grass power and one cup of ice milk tea. n i ate one char ye dan and one lian rong bao coz i really dun think i can finish a whole meal.

had fun taking pics today.

n hooray! my dear boy is so cute to call me up this morning..

saying.. :"wat time u reach home last nite..?" lol.. i thot i sms-ed him when i was at home last nite, b4 goin to bed. i did~ i checked the sms log..

hehe. he isnt angry! horray! i'm delighted! haha. ok so i'm gonna be the good girl n reject all invitations to clubbing for the comin 2 weeks. perhaps makin an exception if one of my darlings (abi, evon, ruoning) asks to go.. y? becoz they're turning older next month ma.. so bday girls.. always gets the privilege. hehee :) but then again mayb they dun wan me to be ard coz i'm always drunk n creating problems. i did create some problems last nite i guess. all have to look after me n cant really enjoy themselves. sorry to all again..

ok. nowadays CSB is rather 'chop chop'.. means very fast the lesson ends or we can leave early or we have some activities. hehe. nice..

goin to rehearse for the CSB meeting liao. they gonna video each group. lol. hope i dun laugh during the video. lalalalallaa... bye all!!

i assume i got drunk again ytd. no?

i duno la. dun think i drank too much. 6 cups of vodka + bourbon.

somemore like 2 out of the 6 wasnt even alcoholic. wahahha

cranberry... juice!

i know i shouldnt stop moving when i have drank too much. if not i'll just stone there and not move anymore. thats y i tried to move again n was reluctant to get out of dancefloor again..

sorry to all those that i've bothered again. i think esp, Rae, Abigail, Yu Ting, Evon.

thanks so much for taking care of me..

somebody said i m goin to throw french fries again ytd. -.-"

too bad mac close liao.

i think i remembered 1 guy spoke to me saying:"u cannot make it liao ah?"

i shoo him off wif my hands n showed him the 'ok' sign.

somebody said:"Agnes, wo da ni huh, wo slap ni huh, ni ya bu ya zhan hao hao?"

was that Rae? lol.

u all came in so late!!!

i think i got in at 10 to eleven. by the time it was 1am, i think i was halfway drunk.

really sorry that i caused u all trouble again.

i guess no more nite activites for me for next 2 weeks. gotta rest n recover. hehe

thanks evon... for the morning call...

love u all..

ok fuck. i'm not the only person around who's not in a gd mood.


mayb somehow my bad mood has affected pple ard me.

mayb they got impatient la.

i dun blame anybody else except myself.

the bad mood came abt becoz i of things i do.

its always me me me me me me me me me me

fuck.

notice i always put "fcuk" instead of fuck.

becoz the level of anger at "fcuk" is lower than "fuck".

now i'm fucking pissed, n i dun give a damn abt anything or anyone else in this fucking world.

i use "fuck".

to show more violence n anger in wat i'm expressing.

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

i'm still in a bad mood :(((((((((((((((((((

I HAVE A AURA ARD ME. THAT SAYS :"I'VE GOT TO KILL SOME PPLE."

N I GUESS WHOEVER STEPS ON MY BIG BIG TAIL TODAY IS GONNA GET IT FROM ME!~~~~~

NO MERCY AHHHH

I M FULL OF "SHA QI" TODAY.

DUN MESS WIF ME.

IM IN A FUCKING BAD MOOD THAT I NEEDS EVERYONE TO BEAR WIF ME FOR A WHILEEEEE.. MAYB FOR TODAY...


STUPID QUARRELS OVER THE SMALLEST FCUKING THING.
I'M JUZ SO IRRITATED N PISSEDD...

N I GUESS THE OTHER PARTY'S HEART SOFTEN WHEN TEARS ROLL DOWN MY CHEEKS.

MAYB IT'S MY FAULT LA..
EVERYFUCKIGNPROBLEMISALLMYFAULT................

I KNOW I SHOULDNT DO WAT I'VE BEEN DOING ALL THIS WHILE, NOT WORKING, SLACKING, DOING STUPID THINGS.....

BUT SERIOUSLY IF U WERE TO FIND A BETTER GF. JUZ GO LAAAAAA......

I WUN BE SO SELFISH TO KEEP U BY MY SIDE...

FIND ANOTHER GF WHO'S A FUCKING MILLION TIMES RICHER THEN MEEEE......

N A MILLION TIMES BETTER. WHO WUN ACTUALLY ASK U FOR HELP.. WAHhhhhhhhhhHHH

aARRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH


I'M SORRY TO ALL THOSE THAT I'VE IRRITATED TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!

JUZ BEAR WIF ME. I WILL GET OVER IT SOON..

I'M JUZ PISSED OVER WAT HAPPEN THE PAST 2 DAYSSS...
EVERYTHING PILES UP.. THEN WAT HAPPENS?

I EXPLODEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


FUCK ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

OK. NOT ALL. ONLY MYSELF~


OK THANKS TO MS MIAO FOR THE HUG IN FME TODAY.

FUCK ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

I'M OUTTA HERE.

a close fren told me that she's having problems, not exactly problems but i duno wat else to call them..

problems wif a guy.. who seems to be playing mind games wif her every now n then..........

n it pisses me n her off. haha.

one way, the guy will mislead her, then suddenly MIA for a while, b4 returning wif another sweet sms to make her confuse.

kaooo. this is so bad.

if u want her, juz go for it. dun do it half heartedly n waste everybody's time right.

n make pple mistaken. then in the meanwhile, pple would have fallen for the guy, becoz he's sweet at times even though MIA-ing for a while in btw.

sucks man.

mindd gamess are so funny in another way, like a fling.


i seriously think i'm not much at fault. although i wun say dat i'm totally not at fault.
i would actually say, both r at fault. n i neva wanted to cause trouble.

being drunk is not how i want it to be right from the start.

who wants to be drunk n suffer from a hangover the other day. the feelin is kinda terrible.

mayb i should kurb my drinking, not drink too much or mixing too much.

mayb i should be thrown alone at the club when u all wanna leave early.

mayb i should be taught a lesson.

mayb i shouldnt club again. but then again, i think its impossible :X wahhaha.

mayb i shouldnt have been so inconsiderate.

mayb i shouldnt be late.

mayb i shouldnt be so problematic.

mayb i shouldnt tok anymore.

mayb i should change my face. go for a surgery, to change into a more likeable face.

ok. mayb i should juz shut up.

yeah i'm pissed. but arent u too?

i guess you're probably too sensitive.

- gone.

seriously.

i juz realised i love hugs* n its really comforting to get one when u're down.

thanks.

my fren gave me a very comforting hug. n its kinda sweet n memorable for certain reasons.

i know its weird bloggin abt this. but i juz thot i should comment on it. haha

came at the right time, n its kinda like consoling each other as well.

on the other side, its like i was drunk. then u took advantage of me...

n u stole a kiss too. even though i dun mind. wahahahaa. :X

joking la. but if u count it in our theory, gals r usually taken advantage off when they're drunk. n i got drunk first. n u cheekily do the things u do. so i say u took advantage of me /*shy

know dat u're kinda sad. n i'm kinda moodless.





dun worry.

wat i promise, n wat u make me promise, i'll deliver. :P

juz dun be affected by it too much.

take care.

lol.

teo li fung ahhh...

so nice of u... love u laaaaa. :)

the conversation abt the kissing part is juz funny.

i think if we're both drunk, better stay away from each other. hahah
if not i duno wat will happen. lol. :PPP

last nite out was crazy.

supposed to meet xl 1030 at chinablack queue.

but i was late. yeah, i got reprimanded when the rest didnt :( waited in the queue til 12. then we went waitin outside, becoz one fren didnt bring her ic.

euguene, brought her ic down. then we got in at ard after 1am.

saw a couple of familiar faces. from sec skool. +8 of us from pioneer, machiam pioneer gathering. haha

8 gals. lotsa fun.

after drinking, we got into the dance floor as it was still early for r&b. neva wanted to leave the dancefloor but i still followed my frens in n out of it.

then drank abit of long island tea. n chatted wif one of the frens. she got reprimanded til she teared. not by me of coz.

then another fren became really sad, she teared, n we all comforted her. the bartender is super nice! gave her 3 cups of drinks. all on him. he says. at least they're such a gentleman. they saw all of us comforting her, n they kinda pity us i guess. so they treated.

then i had a cup of tequila. yeah, its always nice to have evon ard wif me when clubbing. coz she kinda knows wat type i m. hehe.

then had the stupid super bourbon coke. its damn strong. then had the normal bourbon coke. n ...
n ... i think i was drunk.

mayb i cun hold my liquor well.

wanted to dance but was reluctant to go into dance floor after 3plus. coz the music changed. n thanks to my darling fren, who kept tokin to me. n kept me company. if not i duno wat i'll do. thanks for letting me hug for so long. i think the guys ard were damn jealous. lol.

i really wanted to leave after 5. but.. they saw the situation themselves n decided i cmi. n i thot i still can.

so they took me out to mac. n i asked for fries n vanilla coke.

n then somebody told me, there's no vanilla coke at mac. really meh? i didnt know. then i keep askin for vanilla coke n they bought me a medium sized coke.

stupid yj said, :"juz buy coke for her, she so drunk, she wun notice."

kns. really bluff me ah. i really didnt realised its only coke. so they bought me coke n i shut up.

although i kept asking, :"y juz now u all say no vanilla coke, then now have? lying ah?"

no wonder, they say told me to juz drink it.

i think i made them worry.

first time i realised i'm so full of crap.

they think i was drunk, i didnt know alot of things.

i could still make out wat they're saying.

mayb i juz couldn't walk straight. but i think i did tried to.

one gal was vomitin in the toilet n me n my fren asked her to take care.

dat was when i was conscious.

sorry to everybody i pissed last nite. made a fool of myself totally.

sorry to presc, puay hoon, xueling. think i might have said something stupid tat might anger any of u. please pardon me. i really have no idea y i got so drunk.

sorry to rae, abi, ah ting, evon. sorry i had to make all of u leave early. i didnt wanna leave til 5 actually. til i realised some of the ppl needs to wake up early today.

sorry i said some rubbish, did silly things. n thanks evon. i think u kinda understand how come i kept hugging u not letting go. i think i didnt have the strength to stand. lol. eh. first time i hug pple for so long. dx also dun have ah. lol :X muz feel honoured. wahhaha

alright. now i'm a fucked up drunkard myself. i shouldnt have said things in previous's's's entry. mayb i'm so wrong.

:(

ok i'm guilty.

of saying bad things, n breaking promise, and almost breaking another's promise.

ok. i think i'm running a fever now.

i believe i should take a short nap n hope everything would be better when i wake up.

after all. life is like a dream.

shall chill out for now. n hope to recover soon.

love u all! :)

few days ago. friend of mine said that i'm a flirt. that is hilarious.

ytd, my nick was "heartbroken". n i got laughed at.

they're like:" agnes? u ? heartbreak?"

they're assuming that i wun be heartbroken. which is quite wrong.

nvm.

i changed to the green day skin, the theme was the "boulevard of broken dreams" one. black n moody type.

then i saw this current skin now. n i think its kinda cute. alright.


screw tag-board.

screw doodle-board.

screw blogger as well.

i got myself a shoutbox becoz those other boards arent workin, n hasnt be appearing for 2 days or so. so i think its time to move.

juz a quick update.

would like to go for movies actually. but time wun permit.

the plan is to stay in skool til 8pm. n go home n bathe n go out. if only i could leave at 630. then i can please everybody. hahas.

simple thing.

choice 1 or 2.

flu. sore throat/cough. moodless.

wat more can i ask for, except lesser troubles appearing every now n then, like a routine.

life suckx. everything else does too.


been feelin sian.... n moodless since last nite. n i hope this feelin would go away....

my fren said, i'm feelin sian coz i'm sad.

well.. kinda true actually.


suddenly i felt like i've got no one to speak to.





felt sad for my fren's ex bf.

nice guy, but so kelian.

wish him all the best.





how could 2 person who loves each other so much still end up hurtin each other.

beats me.

i juz dun understand...

i still love u la...

thanks rae, for listenin to all my grumbles and telling me those things dat u think i should do.



and all my frens whom i spoke to last nite...

thanks for offering help... :) touched.

i'm very sick of u calling me up when u're fcuking drunk.

speak to me if u want, but please be at least clear minded first.

if not, dun blame me for being rude or watsoever.

juz piss me off so terriblyyyyyyyyy........

aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhh..................


i neva liked to entertain u when u're drunk, n i neva will.

fcuk it.

threaten me to jump of the building, commit suicide.

fcuk.

if u dare to jump, i'll jump after u. n i'm not kidding.

piss me of in the middle of the nite. for no gd reasons.

all becoz of the fucktard.
pui-

the more i think, the more i m pissed.

if u dare call me again askin stupid qns, i wun hesitate to put down the phone.

fuck laaaaaaaa.............

weii.. go club forget the promise liao~~!~~~

log in n out of frenster. waitin for my dear fren to do something she promised.

all in vain. :P

come back liao go write ah!

had a debate earlier abt the pros n cons of clubbin. fill u on the details in anybody's interested. lol/

wat a blog is for, save the hassle of using pen n paper, wasting ink.

but.. stupid blogger. i typed a half page entry, intending to save.

but #$%&^* the entry disappear. gd grief.

arrghh. nvm.

wanted to be very detailed, but i guess i'll juz summarize.

woke up late, reach skool late, leave skool early. - 5pm.

wanna watch movie, reach cinema late, wenta drink at long john cine.

drank, tried to ans tons of very weird, silly, embarrasing qns fired by cyr.


actually.. quite fun day. its always fun when its the only day of the week whr pple gets to leave early. haha :X

when we decided to leave cine for heeren, saw jh mama alone, walkin to cine to buy tix. then acc her, n wenta heeren tgt. then lynn suddenly became really tired, she wanted to go home.

so we bid gd bye to jh, n proceeeded to mrt station.

n that gal who thinks she is more mature than me becoz she is born earlier wanna psyco me to send her home. tampines ok.. lol. -.-

of coz i denied. :X got cheated the day b4 leh. sengkang -> tamp -> lakeside. feel very helpless on train alone de hor.. :( i know i in no position to say anything. but i juz -love-to-complain :P

reached home at 830. i walked home alone from lakeside. yeah i often walk home alone. not very far. gd exercise. :)

on the way home, almost psychoed by mei2 to go club. meet 1030 at jp. go or not to go? dilemma. i neva suppport clubbin on weekdays, becoz i'll be deadbeat by the time i'm home. n when i club, i neva reach home/leave the place early. try not to hav restrictions when u go, more fun ma.

got a few calls from frens.

watched tv n ate dinner, changed bunny newspapers. bathed. chatted on msn. tried to do something productive. but then, realised i didnt do anything at all.

sweet day.

thanks to my fren. ur gd. becoz u really kept ur words... hehe. hope u knw who u r. hehe. curious then ask me la..

somebody says i'm loved becoz i got cheated easily. :((((( - like dat is a gd point.

i'm not cheated easily la. juz that i trust pple more easily. so i tend to get taken advantage of.

:( written a blardy long testimonial for ms miaox. very long la. left 1 space when i ended. the cat better appreciate. lol.

she bribe me using a char siew bao. she's a can zui mao. i'm the greedy owner of the cat then.

use a char siew bao to buy me into carryin the humongous(spell?) book.

time to rest. tata!

monday, did proj til 7plus. then left skool for taka. meet dx there.

he looked exceptionally handsome ytd. :X coz he styled his hair, n dress nicely. neva wear slippers. wear shoe n pants. lol.

but still dun wan take pic wif me. so i bu shuang. n we went abi's place, thanks for the cd-rs. kinda miss my dearie, pardon me for not callin u often. call me ok! :)

went buyin duck mee n headed home. watched tv, bathe, did FME. then fell aslp.

tuesday. did proj til 620, the gals went home. i waited in lab for cyr to acc me to sengkang to get my specs. luckily she agreed to leave at 7pm. but then i think its becoz she wanna watch 9pm show, n not becoz i told her 930pm the shop gonna close. she intended to stay til 8pm. n dover -----> sengkang should be like 1hr.

took train there. so boring on the train. so keep playin wif my phone. til it died. batt empty. n it caused me to feel so helpless on my way home. took the specs liao. then took bus. n took train. felt kinda sad on the train. n i tried to ignore it. i tried to nap. but of coz wakin every 3 mins, hoping to get to lakeside soon. its like enduring hell in the train, becoz its so boring, n my trusty phone looks as if it died on me. :(

anyway, thanks darling.

reached home.

com + ms + eat medicine + fruits.

:(( feelin very uncomfortable. whole day. think my uncleaned water bottle + water cooler = poison. or is it i drank too much water in a day. tat water retention is seriously hurting me. ouch.

my fren.. always ask me sweet or not. i think i more sweet ok. i'm the best fren, lover among all horoscopes. lol :X but dx says, i hurt him the most. meaning, i can be the best fren, but i'm a lousy gf.

told him scorpios are best frens n lovers. but he says how come i always hurt him. but i say i neva wanted to. juz dat things i do always turn out in another way.

somebody says i look like lao fu zi. 0mfg.

u know how big an insult that is? lol.

yeah it can be a joke. no problem. but so off la~! arrgghh...

ah.. the 2 entry before. i had this title:"SCROLL DOWN FOR MORE PICS." alright. its supposed to be SCROLL UP la. i wanted to insert that entry before the PICS GALORE but i messed it up. i now i cun edit it. i'll juz tell everybody here.


sat, i was slpin half day. woke up at 1plus. did some work on fyp pics. saved on the lappy n forgot to bring to skool today -.-

ate a piece of choc, drank chrysanthemum tea. then was watchin naruto when abi sms when we're celebrating xueling's bday. after some time they decided to go town to chill.

i fell aslp while watchin naruto. evon called a few times til 8pm. n she said something like: "CAn u stop slping alrdy? whole day i call u, u have been slping."

lol. too tired la. wenta shaw mcCafe. pass the present to xl. she got a IPOD SHuFFLE from her bf as bday present. $178. cool. then she treat us drinks.. abi, evon, xl, ruoning, me, steven(xl's bf) were there. then 2 of the hardcore gals wenta chinablack. -.-

haha. next time la. me n the rest walked to somerset bus stop to take bus home.

chatted wif rn on the bus. clarified a few things also. haha. kinda cool. reach dx's house, he was waitin for me to reach home. coz i didnt bring his house key out.

watched tv n slp.

Sun -
wenta punggol, steven's place to meet xl n the bf's family. wenta sengkang. the compass point. neva go b4 leh. looks like west mall like dat.

made a pair of specs there. n my specs got "repaired". its the washer that has worn off. so the fella changed a new set of washers for me. n there, its done.

went back to jp to buy lunch, my bubble tea, n bunny's water bottle. then go dx's house, eat liao. i watch tv all the way til 9pm. went home. pack bag n surf net awhile.

then go meet dx again for supper at jalan besar. lol.

my eyes have been very painful since ytd.. til now. whole day only half opened. i wish to have more time to slp... my slp marathon on sat has not been able to make up for this lack of slp today n ytd.

i'm so tired. fyp time......

ms miao n me sharin secrets.............. no la. we're camera shy.



the ms miao actually thinks i have a thing for her. she's so terribly wrong.
written: "I love Ms Miao, meow... I dun love DX. I love Sukhing. muacks/"
horrible lo.



this lady wrote her big name on my left arm. like i owe her a thousand bucks or something. lol



my CSB test. red is the qn paper. guess wats the blue paper? ... my wu ling mi ji... :X haha. oh. the subject is the nice sweet la. not the papers. :X



this is the part where the flash hang-ed. n me n karen panicked. coz we havent saved the file, after we succeeded in makin those codes work.



this darn creepy crawlie made his way up to my ankle b4 i brushed him off. disgusting worm. eeeeeeeeeeeeee



me n ruoning at mos at west mall on sat. almost wenta chinablack after chillin at mcCafe shaw. but we took bus home. i was really kinda tired la. no worries rn. next time then i go wif them. scared no chance meh? haha. :)



ahhh. this is miss miaox (= sk) 's hand. demostratin to us how to point n shoot a guy gun.



ms miao thot her head is much stronger than mine. she used it to knock into my head a few times. silly gal.

be back to blog abt sat and sun. meanwhile. tata!

The past week, we?ve been like stayin in skool til 8plus or something. At least 3 days I remember stayin til the skies turn dark.

Finally we made progress. Being able to interact the database is one problem me n my mates have been workin on for the whole week. Breakthrough on Friday. Quite thanks to Channon. Our yr 1 or 2 lect, who is really gd at vb.net. thanks to him.

2 more weeks to go, then we will hand up 3 projs, and a report, and start having tests and graduation.

Kinda sad if u think abt it. But nvm.

Having fun in lab actually, while doin projs. Declaring break every 1.5hr, to buy snacks, toilet break. Playin games to de-stress, and surfin net when we cun think of how to solve those problems further.


FYPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

Yeah. Its gonna be all over soon.


All I could think of for this entry is proj proj n proj. hm..

My glasses kinda fell apart this week. The sticky part came off. thus its very easily detachable. One knock n it will be separated. I?m gonna fix it soon I hope. Very busy. Dear?s workin n hasn?t got time to acc me to make a new pair.

Oh. One amazing thing. Haven?t drank bubble tea for like 1 week or so. Might be lesser. This is most likely the longest period where I haven?t touch paopaocha. By the time I leave skool, I kinda out of energy to go jp to buy drinks. N I guess they more or less would have closed.

Have been a rather fcuked up week. Going thru squabbles and ended it when something bigger n problematic happens.

Mood thru out the week: worried, sad, stressed, happy, irritated, agitated, angry.

Hope happy things will come my way.. stressful n irritating things, please keep out of my way, Before I spoil everybody?s mood.

Hope fyp progress goes smoothly. Hope everyone will be safe, I pray for all of u ppl out there whom I know, to be happy, and trouble free.

Do u understand how I feel?

Ask me do I respect n treat u in a way that was expected of me? Me: -yes.
But I doubt u do. Fuck.

there r bigger problems happening then the tiffs between u n me.
i pray for ur safety first. hope everything will be ok tonite.

may all ah bengs crash n die, be put into jail.

I DETEST AH BENG N MY BF IS NOT AN AH BENG!!!!!!!!!!!!

fucking ah bengs only know how to be cowards, call a big bunch of pple vs one. even if u r ARCHILLES also cannot win. CB... AH BENG SUCKS.

I dun care if i curse them dat much, becoz they really deserve to be put behind bars. ah bengs are only childish games guys play.

if u r a ah beng wif ability to earn n be successful, be rich, i got nothing to say. most of the times, ah beng r those wif super limited education, neva think, pea sized brains faggots who loves to act big n tok big.

may u fucking ah beng on motorbike crash n die soon.

yes i'm evil. so wat. i'll do anything to protect the pple i love. fuck.

the only way to indirectly kill the cb ah beng is to curse n pray dat he'll die sooner.

fuck u all.


moody.

unhappy.

sad.

dun wanna tok to anybody.

leave me alone.

sad-ed.

sad-ed.

sad-ed.

y do i always do the wrong things at the wrong time?

such dat i create the opportunity for u to find fault wif me.

i really hope i can be slighlty more perfect.

i neva meant to ignore ur calls.

stupid indoor court is so fcukin noisy. n i left it in my bag.



MISCOMMUNICATIONNNNNNNNNN.................

this fucking bloody thing caused me so many sorrows. n so many quarrels that were uncalled for .

caused me so many fucking problems. i'm sick of it.

mayb i should stop tokin to everybody..

yeah. i should be alone man.

arrrrggghhhh.. stab me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so tireddd...............

that i only have energy to add this 2 sentences.....

:((((((

this is bian bian's(ms miao'x dog's) wife. my baby. duno wat name yet. haha. i think when i havent got a name for anything. i'll juz call it baby.



this is the part whr i almost died laughing. can u see wat the 3 r up to? their covering their ears n chanting:"tomato, chilli, mustard, potato, etc etc".

darn fcukin funny la. they're tryin to play the game that they hav created. n it seems tough. 3 person to move to lvl 8. kns.



one of them was dancing while memorising, the other was lookin at me n chanting her sutra, the other walked to the front of the classroom. All did wat they did to avoid being distracted. lol


i kinda love takin pictures. so i take every gd n bad picture. i meant i like to be the photographer. not the subject. hence..



phuay brought half a pack of honey stars to share. thanks. :)



then ms miao thinks she's like barbecuing marshmellow or something. fancy her puttin the stars on a stick. funny la.


alright. this is the first time in months i've feel so drained n tire out. having migrane since 10pm. duno y.. i fell aslp while doin fyp today in lab. first in weeks. so.. gtg get my beauty slp. gd nite...