it juz dawned on me, "wat and how would i feel, if a close fren of mine did something silly, committed suicide, and i wasn't there to help, or lend a hand?"

i would be guilty all my life.

for not being there when all else seems to fail, when there is not a single happiness in u, when u felt dat dying is the way to solve everything. dying is escaping everything. and u will leave more pple feelin very guilty, very upset abt things they did not do.

cherish ur life. i'm sure there are alot more things in life worth living for, esp ppl in ur family, like ur mum, ur frens.