there are actually alot of things dat are not shown on tv. but u can get to see online. like a man being beheaded, a girl being rape, pple get killed by the tsunami waves, etc etc. all these dat u have neva seen, made u a person who hasnt seen alot. if u have seen those things, it actually makes u feel very angry and disturbed, like its not suppose to happen and u think such things are not real..

wat i wanna say is, life is actually very cruel, and most of the time, pple dun get to see the cruel side of things yet, so they tend to be soft. once u have seen such things, mayb u would appear to be as angry and make a stand of ur own very quickly, like me.

juz came back from shoppin wif my poly frens and boy, its really tiring. shoppin is a tiring thing to do, becoz u walk non-stop and u get occasionally bored at times. but i think its gd to go shoppin wif ur gfs becoz they tend to give u opinions and its usually better than wat the guys would say. saw 3 tops dat i like, 2 in topshop, and one from far east. still thinkin if i should buy them or not. feel like getting another skirt. i dun have alot of skirts la, so i need another one.

my hair still sucks as usual, and ms miaox told me tat my hair is ugly today mornin when i met her. of coz she's kiddin la. she's a nice girl and i think she gives rather gd advices. thanks ms miao for all the advices u have given me, becoz sometimes i really duno who to tok to. i need to tok to someone who knows something, and yet have to help me keep it secret.. from all the other pple dat i dun intend to tell. thanks ya.

not dat i dun like to tell the rest, but one main thing is dat ms miao take the same train as i do so i tend to tell her more. everything i told her is a secret btw the 2 of us, pls pls pls keep it secret.

but dun worry, its nothing bad abt any of u, mostly abt things dat do bother me, myself only at times, and its not like she knows everything, but she juz knows like 2% more then the rest. :P


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wonder is it me, or my very sensitive personality. realised dat somebody in skool dun like me, or mayb even hates me. nobody shall guess to try to know who dat person is, and i dun think i shall spoil her image in anyway. its like a myth, and i'm the only person who believes this. i've not spoke to anyone or ask opinion from anybody, dats y i said sensitive me. its alright if the person hates me becoz i always believe there r 2 sides to each coin. muz be something i did dat really anger the person or irritate the person, and for watever dat i did dat makes her feel this way abt me, i hope is juz a misunderstanding, and it will be cleared.

i really do hope its juz me dats being sensitive, becoz i dun wanna instill hate towards dat person if she's hating me.


i believe dat trust is a very impt thing between frens. and i really cannot take it if pple were to take advantage and abuse the trust build up btw us. its like betraying the other half if u didnt keep it a secret. sometimes i know there r things i shouldnt say, then i shall not say it. but...... nvm...

i'm tryin to wax my hair but it still cun seem to stay in shape after a while and i touch it everytime i see or dun see the mirror, and when i recall that i have a pretty ugly hair. hahah.

i've become slightly slow in terms of thinking, not dat i wasnt slow b4, but i seem to have become S--L-o--W-e-r right now. feel like my brain is shrinkin and deteriorating. as if i'm super old or something. the short term memory is getting worser. hope i'm physically alright.

sometimes i think too much and its not very gd becoz i complicate simple things and make my life worse.

thanks evon for arranging to go to ktv tomoro. appreciate it. i was sad when u said u wanted to go bbRoom but luckily u changed. but sorry made u cancel ur celebration wif jimmy. thanks! :P