boxerssssss.

hm.. wenta town wif yiwen after today. orchard. then met lynn(np) for a shoppin trip. again, it was futile, coz by the time we finish dinner, it was alrdy 9pm. 2nd time this happened. its our dinner's fault. anyways, wear til super lok today, lynn(sp) said i really looked like i was workin at the warehouse. haha *winks at yiwen.

i loved the milk tea!. nice!. from mos. burger.

arhh. reached home ard 1145. went to bathe, n played few rounds of gb wif phuay. then its lights off for her. then played with nino[ruoning] n her frens. then halfway, my com shut down. simply dampened my spirits. no mood to play alrdy la. anyway. should try to slp "early" today. kinda tired le.

ahh. got my itp grades. "good" at first attempt. then my sup changed her mind, n added a "v" infront of the "good". yup. i had so many mistakes i really think i deserve a big "B". but she's so nice, she's giving an "A". dat juz made my day. :)

saw lynn, nana, wanling n weipeng. i mean, met* haha. went to the roadside stall to eat hokkien mee. n chix wings. lynn was searchin for a top to match her dress.

arhh. i'm so tired. shall skip details n keep things short n sweet.

i wann buy a black boxers, a white one too. jeans, hp. topshop rugged tee! n board shorts!. lol. so many things to buy. i think i needa work more.

met my mum on e way home from orchard. sighz. suddenly felt i missed her alot. y? i'm seein her only once a week if i'm lucky. i'm such a useless daughter for leaving n blaming everything on her. cun depend on her to pay n work for the family. i think i should start being even MORE independent. financially. but i guess its difficult. i really dun wanna depend on anybody. really. not even my bf. it feels damn gd to hav my own income. dun wanna see ppl face etc. think my mum is really getting old. n she hasnt really met a nice guy. i dun like the current one. but if she's happy abt it. i'll be happy for her. sigh.

alot of pple told me dat i'm strong n independent. i appear to be strong. hm..
i think, in terms of family problems. i m. so strong dat nothing seems to daunt me in dat area. coz i'm juz so numbed from all the happenings in the last 10 yrs, dat no matter wat happens, i dun hav much reaction to it. really. its probably makin me so hateful to my frens.

it attributed to the person i m now. cold n heartless. i say n do things. if u ppl notice. i do things for a reason, but i know i keep sayin crap stuffs, i'm direct etc. but, i'm really serious, i dun act cold n hard for nothing. i say one thing n i do another. if any, anybody notices at all. sighz.

mayb in other stuffs, i'm not dat strong. perhaps in relationship. lynn says me n my bf look like buddies... dats juz so funny. ........

m i really strong? i duno. i will say, there're bound to be times when even god will breakdown. really. trust me on dat..

i kept listenin to old love songs nowadays. songs like danial chan's :"ai ni duo ni". n ahh... its raining now. n i miss trainings n everybody on the team. sigh. napfa is scaring me. how can i do well. arrhhhh.

sj. nice chat wif u today. glad dat u bothered to listen to wat i hafta say. thankUsoMuch. :) i neva told anyone abt dat stuffs b4. so be honoured! haha. hope u make up wif her! really! i believe she will give u another chance, n try to make things the way they were b4. gd luck! anyways. arhhh. cya nov 6!. haha. :P *take a deep b-r-e-a-t-h-------*

my mood: so confused. haha.
health: abit hungry. lol. craving for, green apple green tea.

sigh. noticed dat i was forcin myself, to cough out something to type. this shouldnt be the way right. should be myself, n let things come out naturally. n not forcefully cough things out. arrh. watever.

know wat, i'm not making any sense. like i care. i've said, i'm feelin so confused. O_O

rather happy abt a certain thing now. its raining!!! i love rainy days! hahaa. will wanna dress up n go town tomoro! coz today wear too lok liao. i myself also buay tahan.

goin out wif lynn again. n meetin evon at nite.

arrghhh. i'm so self conscious, this entry is abt me me n me. i dun care as usual. haha. i'm happy the way it is. luckily its my blog. alright alright. i'm juz so crappy. goin to bed!!! SOON!!!. :P

i dun give a care for the world.