aiya. my sup isnt here today. my bigger sup told me to ask another colleague for work to do.

went to her desk, she wasnt there as well. hm.. so i'm told to wait for my sup's phone call. sighz. ok la. then i'll take time to blog.

went evon's place last nite, after i bathed n bought dinner. such a coincidence. this gal had to purposely call to tell me dat she ordered kfc, wun be able to finish it herself, ask if i want some, only immediately after i had paid for the food i bought. but i went up anyway, since i didnt wanna spend time on the com. d/ling songs or surfing aimlessly. didnt wanna play game too. no, i'm not addicted to gunbound. definitely not. will play it when i'm free.

the first episode of the 9pm ch 8 show was ok. was waitin for the hunk(yan xing shu from MVP qing ren) to appear, but he didnt :( he's appearing in tonite's episode, which i doubt i'll be ard to catch it. i would most probably be outside.

was surfing the net from SMU right up to this very useful webby.
www.smu.edu.sg http://www.collegeboard.com/

this is the "official" SAT webby. lots of help available. including test dates, question of the day, location of tests, no. of days to book for upcoming SAT. read dat the SAT will be renamed as SAT 1. new syllabus from Mar or May next yr. was wondering, mayb i should take the SAT b4 new syllabus one in start of next yr, see if my results r good enuf, if not, try for the new syllabus end of next yr. either ways, the test scores last for 5 years.

i was lividly cussing in my previous entry. its made me so darn confused, as to whether i should head to SMU immediately after i grad. the skool term starts in Aug, n has only 3 semester/terms per year.

i mean, head to, as in try to get in. i'm not pretty confident of securing a place of coz, as my results, still CMI la. mayb my SAT paper might help me as an added advantage. dats y i'm contemplating whether i should take it soon, so i might be get into the Aug intake. but, my financial abilities at home, surely poses a big problem. yes, i can take a loan from the legal loansharks or watever, but i dun wanna be commited to paying off fees even before i start working full time. i dun wan dat to happen. i'm gonna be spending more then i can earn if dats the case. i would rather those $$ to go to more gratifying cause. like buying a car. :D or buying my/our dream car wif dx. sigh. i need a license too. but i'm feeling so lazy to learn, go thru the 20+ stages of practical. how did these pple do it? sigh.

my interest in cars ! = interest in obtaining class 3 license.
but, my interest in bikes = interest in obtaining class 2 license. but dat would take 3 long yrs, b4 i could get my dream bike.

my dream bike ---> super big sport bike, wif super huge cc, wif twin exhaust, big beautiful headlights n tail lights. take a look.


GSX 1300R hayabusa.

i love this color.

haha. dream on.

got so much interest in this bike, i even bought a scale model of it[the orange color one]. cost me $52. damn its the nicest n coolest bike a gal could own. unless u're toking abt big exclusive bikes from BMW.

so i hav very very high respects for those pple with class 2 license[which is a bad thing, becoz most class 2 bikers r damn arrogant n hao lian]. ah xian(abi's), go get class 2, then i can get joy rides from u in future! then abi can sit in dx's car. wahahaha :X kidding la.

watched Get Rea! on channelnews asia last nite. 830 pm. those reading xia xue's blog would know. there's this guy, who wants pple to read his blog, ended up nobody reading it, n he gave up. stupid fella. i juz hate him.

couldnt make out wat he was trying to say either. well, mayb i'm really getting dumb la. i'm getting retarded. i think i need more of action games, memory games, rpgs[strategy games] to improve the current situation. like stoning everyday. muz think, n work my mind. my intellectual functions r deteriorating. help!

evon, y did u laugh when i said i couldnt understand? hm.. think u spot on la. i really m getting dumb...

this stupid fella which i mentioned n stray off 2 paragraphs ago,
was saying:"to tell ur problems n say sorry on the internet, is a cowardly way to do it. its better to speak to the person infront of u. it would be better." Mayb I had taken his words out of context, but I dun care la.

I muz admit dat the darn messenger n internet has enabled n simplify mass communication, but those conversations dat u have might have sparked off some unhappy things, n the worst part is, its actually really avoidable. Becoz u cun see the person?s expression when he was typing/saying the things dat appear on the screen, many a times pple might have been mistaken, n when u see the things dat he dun agree on, u tend to stand on the pessimistic side to view everything.

N, being the ego-istic being dat everyone is, we dun apologise or say anything to try to salvage the situation. Hm? so everyone, I would recommend dat u take all the things ur fren has said wif a pinch of salt.... Hai...

alright, back on track. fcuk la. i juz dun like him. i m bias. he so hero, then good for him la. these pple tok only for the sake of toking. speak for the sake of saying something. now, i understand wat all these means, juz like "eat for the sake of eating". waste pple time.

as if he dares to say everything directly. blog is a freedom of speech, with no editorial rights to anybody except the author herself. dats the pro. so i can say anything i like, there might be some form of interaction, or feedback u might get from the readers. the cons will be dat, all the problems might be known by much more pple than when u keep it inside ur heart, n tell only one or two bosom buddies.

hm.. as i dun hav a best fren, wat i do is, i tell different pple abt things goin on in my life. i dun tell everything to one person only. becoz, i think, different fren will understand things at a different rate. some i go to for fren's advice, some i go to for family advice. juz like how i dun tell dx abt wats happening in my home. he is so not interested in my daily life, i once told him: "can u appear more interested in my daily activites? like how i fare for napfa, how was my sentosa trip, how was my shopping trip. can ask me things like dat or not?/"

his reply:"im only interested in my (super high maintenance)wife."
he is refering to his car. ya, dats his first love, i'm 2nd. (low maintenance, dats y no need to inquire abt my daily life.) :(

so, sk, when u ask dx to becareful when u said i'm in love wif cars more than i'm in love wif him[in a testimonial added in frenster very long time ago], mayb i should! then we'll be equal. :D

aiya. not saying bad things abt him. i m a very faithful gf. O_O

alright. at this point, i must admit, i'm blogging for the sake of blogging. sorry for wasting anybody?s time. Wanna be true to myself n anybody reading this.

I?m not addicted to blogging. I?m probably a little addicted to him (n mayb some other.. heh.). :P naughty me.

ciao!

I M A GIRL. I CAN M-U-L-T-i-T-A-S-k.


:P bleh.


Best thing is dun race. Win nevermind. loose liao malu.

[hahaha. so true]

fri. cun remember wat i did in the afternoon. em..

went to bugis to shop.then met abi n ah xian for dinner at jalan besar. ate this "ka tou jian". something like dat. curry rice. very nice.

decided to go to bourbon street after dat. i miss the live band there! haha. yeah the lead singer looks cool n abit handsome la. though dx says he didnt look very handsome. didnt dance n didnt drink much. stayed there from 12plus til 145. i think i'm starting to like dat place. but the stupid age limit. arrggh. 21- ladies, 23 - guys. think we should start to make frens with the management so we could go in. lol.

went evon's place for dinner n baking of cookies after work.went home late last nite. we dun have alot of 15 mins for baking each tray of cookies.

3 person who tried my cookies n CAKE said dat it was nice. haha. wow. the CAKE also they say its nice.

here's the story of the CAKE.
evon n xueling produced the first batch of dough for cookies.me n ruoning began to start on the second batch. we put ALL of the butter.260g of brown sugar, ALL of the flour remaining.2 eggs, some baking soda[or was is powder?], pinch of salt.

noticed i said ALL? means i forgot to weight the butter. lol. each bar of butter is 250g. supposed to use 320g i guess.so it would be 1/5 of a bar of butter right?[approximately.] but i threw the whole bar in. which was slightly lesser than 4/5 of the 250g. = 180g.so total amt of butter is 250g+180g = 430g. em. i exceeded it by abt 100g right. wow. big mistake.

the dough didnt turn into a ball like the first batch. which left all of us thinking, wat thing did we missed out; wat was the last ingredient; then finally someone pointed out dat the 2nd batch of us threw ALL of the butter in. YA!. then it struck me. i was happily trying to play wif the butter, coz xueling n i was thinking of how to melt the butter. then we put ALL of it in. lol. it was funny la. then we decided to leave the bowl of excess oily buttery "dough" alone. then ruoning tried to pour away the oil/butter dat "floated" on top of the "dough". if anyone looked at evon's blog, u would hav seen the pics of the first dough, which apparently looks like dung, imagine my bowl looking like a dinner gone way wrong. [lau sai !] hahax.

then me n ruoning came up wif the idea of trying to skoop[spell?/] up the excess butter. guessed how much we manage to remove? one whole soup sized bowl ! its so horrible, i couldnt really believe it at first. since the supposedly "dough" wasnt hard enuf, i was toying wif the idea of making a CAKE, since it looked like the one i did in Home Econs class in Sec 2. i told xueling, "might as well pour the whole 'dough' into the tray, push into the oven, n see wat comes out of it."

i was hoping for a brownie or CAKE type of thing. WELL, something came out of it. at least its edible n though it taste like a very digusting piece of thing, i brought some of it home, after much persuasion by the rest. none of them bring home any. the rest were thrown down the chute.

got yw, jw n my supervisor to taste it today. YEAH! all of them said its nice! i kept quiet abt the CAKE though. i knew the cookie was nice la. but the cake, i was hoping for some really bad feedback. but my guy fren said its very nice! yw liked it too, so much dat i gave her my own portion. i brought 3 portions only. n my sup said not bad! n she asked me for the recipe! O_O i warned her b4 dat saying dat the CAKE was a big disaster la. n she was surprised dat i baked that thingy. she kept asking :"u know how to bake ah? really not bad leh, can give me the recipe??"

lol. credits to xueling n evon n ruoning la. i did nothing much except eating, drinking[a&w root beer wif marteL, barley], lazing ard, watching tv, tryin to make evon angry[which she did, she throw a small ball of dough at me. sorry evon. :P ], trying to irritate the rest of them, saying wrong things, saying stupid things.

hey! evon, suddenly i realised dat u seem to hav thrown alot of things at me! or was it other pple? i think u threw a piece of used tissue at me b4 right? lol. n now the list starts rolling again. :(

oh, they poured martel[yes, the big bottle of alcohol/duno wat is it called] into my root beer, n said dat i was drunk when they couldnt understand wat i was saying. O_O

in office now, feelin very relaxed. tryin my best to blog n waste time away.

my bigger sup, gave me a Lee Kuan Yew book - The Singapore Story.
my official sup, a manager, gave me one of the latest edition of their dictionary! every page is colored, n it comes wif a cd-rom.

yeah. i know, lucky me.

u know, my favourite book is actually the dictionary. haha. i attempted to read the "A" section few years back, but i quitted halfway, coz there's juz too many for me to digest, n now, got a new colored dictionary wif lotsa pictures, mayb i'll give it a try, only after i finished the LKY book. lol

alright. ms miao juz called. asking me to go ECP n told me the time to meet for napfa tomoro. hm... sigh.

fcuk. i hate napfa. all the way since pri 4. coz i failed in pri 4. no, i wasnt fat, i didnt know y i failed. should be coz of 1.6km. but pri 5 i got gold. n i was in library n badminton club. lol.

2 voices in my head right now:

1.FAIL FAIL LA!
2.Die Die also muz pass 2.4.km.

fuck it la.
i dun wanna fail :(

feeling quite ok today. not much work to do. my sup asked me few days ago, :"eh! u neva read books one ah? got time go down to our show room n read la! "

lol. not dat i dun wanna read, i all the way got things to do ma, dun wanna spend lunch at the show room. so i didnt go down lo. i didnt say anything to her la. haha. at 3pm, i finished all the work given to me, n i asked her:"can i go to the show room to read?" she said yes, haha. she got nothing for me to do. n since its a Fri, think she cut me some slack.

cool. tomoro i'm supposed to go ECP n beachbar. lol. how? i didnt make firm promises. as i thot i might not be able to make it.

evon is so naughty, keep making fun of me,

evon:"ai ya, this gal at nite cannot go out one. "
she was refering to me.

evon:"she cannot go to places where there r loud music, n where pple r dancing."

lol. so bad la! haha.
ya lo. i so sad. grounded by.............. my own conscience.. :(

think i'm gonna be late in goin off. haha. ciao!

hey. i think i ate very little yest. mayb it seems alot to u.?/

here is it:
breakfast, one piece of snow skin mooncake. (cut into 4 pieces, remember?).

lunch, a bowl of mee soto, in which all the tao gays/veges got removed.[come on la, mee soto isnt very filling right? jw says its only an appetizer to him. so i should be hungry after work! but i didnt!]

dinner/after work, was at taka, bought a gogo sausage combo(has 5 pieces of cheeseballs, 1 chicken western sausage.) and a cup of small milk tea from mos burger. [forced myself to eat it.]

is dat alot? i was so full the whole day. we reached his place at 9pm. then he was watching The Day After Tomorrow, a newly bought DVD. i slpt thru the whole movie. O_O

haha. coz we watched it b4 in the theatres la. then his bro joined us in the room, the movie ended, ard 11pm. n he said he wanted to eat mee. he was hungry. went to the market near my place..

the mee is very nice. we bought 2 bowls of mee kia. then 2 bowls of cheng teng. i was still full, actually only wanted to eat cheng teng only. but the mee is so tempting. so i bought a bowl myself, n gave half of it to dear. he ate one n a bowl half. so, in addition to the above, its cheng teng n half a bowl of mee kia. for.. supper/dinner. [wasnt very hungry after the nap, was still very full, but could eat dessert, hence the cheng teng. n forced myself the half a bowl of mee kia even though i was very full.]

if u think all this for a day's meal is ok, then gd, but i still think its abit little. i used to be able to eat dinner after work, then supper again. means i skipped one meal now/something like dat.

hm.... convince me.. dat yesterday's takings its alot. lol. then i would know i'm still normal. weigh myself this morning. 48kg, on an empty stomach. ok? or too skinny?.

alright. out to lunch! :P

eh. the stupid song is was on radio this morning.

dumb song:
u should really know/i dun wanna know. - mario winans, the pirates.

obviously the remix-ed version of 2 individual songs respectively. dumb song la. think its remix-ed by p10.

part of the lyrics:
u should really/i dun wanna/u should really/i dun wanna
u should really know.........
blah blah.

by the first sentence alrdy can show how dumb this song is alrdy. therefore no further explanation needed. dumb n irritating song.

i think dat nice songs r worth mentioning. same goes for bad/lousy/irritating songs. juz a tad different, e.g. being condemn by ME . O_O

lalalalalallalala who cares.

rip this off from one of my fren's blog.

"its bad when somebody set his/her footprints in ur live and den set off ur path to another's to pursue his/her own future. its impossible fer 2 good frns to stay as good forever. it hurts when u care abt smone but he/she does not care abt u as much. it hurts when u see ur gd frn being gd frns with others. and when u dun even dare to admit u are jealous, u will try everything to spite the person.. which eventually leads to a quarrel. isnt it bad tt almost all quarrels are triggered from jealousy? so damn stupid. and the other party juz cant seem to realise anithing and in the end, u are always da fault of everything. why not juz, once and for all, let this frnship cease, to prevent ani more injuries to de heart. Yes time heals, but how many times can it heal? hundreds? thousands? so impossible. even if it heals, there's still the scars left behind, each reminding u of every single event tt happened b4. sad ones. to prevent injuries, juz let urself be hurt once, terribly, break it off, and in da future, there's no more such stuff.. nobody can hurt u ani more. but, can u do that? even if u try to get everything off ur mind, tt person will come back. and the worst is, he/she tries to come into ur life again. and once tt happens, u will get hurt again. so why let him/her does wad she wans? juz block it off and u will be freed. isnt tt so?

pple juz cant understand how much they are hurting u. they sae they do, but after a lil while, dey start stabbing u again. bitter sweet, u mite call it, but its terrible. they juz dun even haf da pig brains to understand. so, dun ever give all out in a frn/relationship. in the end, u urself are the onli one getting hurt. so why bother. its not smth tt one can control. but u cud at least try."

wow. this is so true. sounds familiar to me. something like wat i told my fren last nite. ahhh. :X

eh, sj, u said i'm so negative abt having a best fren. no la. not negative. its i juz dun believe. haha.

goin out! :)

gd nite. to myself.

wat is a fren? best fren?

here r some of my own opinions.

someone who shares the same interests, almost similar mindset, thinking.
s/o who loves u for who u r, s/o whom u treasure, & think dat u want her to understand u, know more things then other pple abt u.
laugh, cry, s/o whom u cun live w/o. or she cun live w/o u.
understands u.
be there for u.
ur so called 'twin' s/o who is always seen stickin wif/to u.

i guess. from wat i gathered, 'best fren' is quite only a term. i guess, many pple in some point of time, has a 'best fren'. but gd things dun last. dun they. *sigh. i dun recall having a super 'best fren'. probably i dun allow any. mayb its me. since pri skool til sec skool til poly. i would say all the frens i hav, r my gd frens. not best. havent really found one who could understand me fully. i guess, nobody gives me the chance, or coz i shun away from pple, coz i'm attached. n most pple think dat as long as i'm attached, he's all i need. all u pple out there who think this way. u r so wrong. he is impt to me. but i guess, there's still things i cannot say to him. i keep alot of things to myself. i guess, wat u pple see is only 70% of me. *sigh.

i hate it when i tell pple something, n they reply saying, they're even worst off then dat. i guess, everyone has problems. n when i see ppl replyin dat, i guess they mean: "u think only u hav problems ah." right. this r things dat encourage me to keep more things to myself. i'm selfish right, want ppl to take time to listen to wat i gotta say. *sigh. i guess, i shouldnt do things this way. mayb i should listen more to my frens. so i can be somebody's listener. who understands man. this?.. i guess i need a listener. or mayb i should buy a recorder. n in future u pple can tok to me n i will reply using it. i can record wat i wanna say, n no need to repeat it. if ever pple r gonna ask.

frens offer giv advice, guides, comments, companionship. i think everyone will die w/o frens, or u'll turn out to be pretty weird.

i feel for pple who r goin thru the following:

• e.g. A treats B as a best fren. but B doesnt treat A as a best fren. wat should they do? sort of imbalance in this frenship. right? if one party wants the other to treat her in the same way, should she tell? or if B doesnt want A to treat her as her best fren, should she speak up? either way. it hurts. should they make things clear? or juz let nature take its course? or should B juz keep quiet n continue treating A the way she wants to be treated, n hopefully she'll understand one day? wat crap.

another way to look at it:

• both u gals used to be very close. really great frens for years. trust each other, always tgt, know each other secrets. basically. u treat each other equally. at least its fair now. but as i said, all gd things must end. one very idiotic day comes, n one of u suddenly pulls away. she doesnt treat u like a best fren anymore. contributing factors include new skool, new frens, new environment, tired of u, etc etc. how would u feel..? its juz so saddening. one is the loyal fren whom u hav gone thru thick n thin wif. the other, juz change. wat a change. this change signifies the start of the end of ur 'best fren' relationship. get me? no? read dat sentence again. its juz so unfair. wat would u do, if u were in the former's shoes? start writing a letter to teenage/teens mag n ask kelly wat to do? innocent kids. *shakes head. reason i stop readin teenage n teens since sec skool. the problematic pages, r quite so very young readers wif problems. those like 12-16 yr old.

life is juz so unfair. wat to do. live wif it. it will forever be a bumpy ride. mayb its who u got to go thru those humps wif. it might make some, it might break some. u get lucky n unlucky at times.

so. to summarise, i guess, best frens r not really impt, i think having frens alone is gd enuf. if u will find frens who will go an extra mile for u, be it simple stuffs, like a sms saying take care, study hard, or any form of encouragement would really be enuf. sad to say, i think best fren dun last forever. probably they would. but so far, havent really had one. if u wann be somebody's best fren, tell her straight. i guess, keepin inside n showin it thru actions, she might start to get alarmed. perhaps telling her, then she'll know wat n how to treat u in a way. might be betta.

heres a quote out of mich's blog:
" In love and in pain, always know that you have friends. Friends are forever. A true friend will always be there for you in times of need, even when the rest of the world seems to have left you behind. I hope I can be such a friend, because I know I treasure the friends I have. "

After work, went jp to get bubble tea, n some snacks. Walked ard, left for wisma at 7pm. Reach there ard 740. but the stupid charles n keith is so darn packed. The queue is long n the store looks as if some shoe eating monster juz pass by. Darn. Told dear dat we should go to marina outlet. He drove me there, n I wenta the shop. It looks juz like the shoe monster had swept past too. Only thing is, this shop here is bigger. I walked ard searching for the slippers I want. Spent a long time there. Luckily dear wasn?t angry for waiting so long.

My description of the store: Long queue, many shoes, messed up, sales assistants r very very busy, loads of boxes, loads of shoes not in their original place. Lotsa human beans walking around. *yawnz. The queue was long, I waited pretty long for the attendant to bring me my pair of slippers. I tried abt 5 pairs? Ahah. Bought 2 in the end. I liked both! Learnt dat if u cun find the color on the so called "display shelf" or is it "heap of shoes", doesn't mean the color is sold out. Appearently, I got the colors I wanted, the size n both of them cun be found on the display.

Interesting encounter at my fav kuay chap stall at west coast last nite, a drunkard, was finding fault wif a fish ball mee(FBM) stall owner, and the lao ban niang(LBN) aka lady boss of the coffeeshop. drunkard finds fault wif FBM guy. They were quarelling. So obvious dat the drunkard is drunk, hence the name. shouts at each other. Then came LBN. She so power, keep shoutin at the guy, til he backs off n sat down. After a while, this drunkard starts tearing his shirt apart. He went up to the FBM guy.

Drunkard: "hey, u bully me, tore my shirt off.?"
FBM: "r u mad or wat, u tore of the shirt urself wat."
Drunkard: "I tore my shirt is my problem, but u bullied me."
FBM: "siao."

At this point, drunkard keeps pushing FBM guy. N almost wanting to start a fight. Whr the hell r e police? Took so bloody long to come.

LBN comes along. N tells drunkard : "u dun any how touch hor!"
Points finger at drunkard. "go outside n tok, dun stay here n disturb my customers. Go out.. OUT!!! "

All of the above r supposedly in hokkien. Translated, courtesy of agnes. :)
so funny encounter. Esp the toking part. Ahah. I kept laughin when dear explained to me. Hehe.

alrights. This week, suppose to get my third grade from supervisor. But I aint ready to give her the book today. Mayb I should, mayb next Monday then I give. Well. If I can finish the work I'm suppose to do b4 work ends. Then I'll give it to her.

ciao!