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forget n live.
Friday, September 17, 200411:37 AM
the next time people tells me that they'll try to forget someone, something, who was once impt to them, i would not believe it. totally. if that person was someone who was once impt to u, i bet my toes that its not juz a easy job of saying u will try to forget him/her.
but then again, mayb u could? like.. after a long long time? 1 year? how could anyone forget things like that?as in so easily? unless wat u guys went thru r juz superficial.. right? if not, i really doubt the relationship btw the couple. sometimes i wonder, y do pple live? do they live for themselves? or live for their loved ones? or abit of both? living for urself is like a selfish way of thinking, wheareas living for ur loved ones is a noble way? no way. i'm slightly selfish, i live abit for myself, abit for my loved ones. i live for myself, how do i justify it? - i wanna buy clothes for myself, i wan things for myself, i wan a cap, hp, jeans, shoes, money. but... wait, these are wants. not needs. if u ask if i live for such things, obviously its not. i think i live for food. haha. gd food. ya. thats wat i live for, n basically having fun. i wanna hav fun all the time. i've heard of pple who live for their love ones.. its like they work n earn, but the $$ will end up goin to the family members. like a guy who is tryin to support his younger brother thru college n eventually Uni. if i'm the younger brother, i would be so compelled to study hard, n work hard juz to repay my brother. then there's other stories of pple who work to support everyone else in the family, he himself doesnt get any fun, entertainment. basically he's juz living to support his family. to me, its like he dun have a life. if thats the case, probably i'll die long ago. i dun like this feeling. at least if i think i live for myself, i would be slightly more motivated. its selfish, but if i'm the family, i would feel selfish too, that i need to rely on somebody to help me, resulting in that poor fella not being able to lead his life. but then again, if the guy himself think its worth it, gd for him. lucky for his family. i might not be able to do that. i live for my loved ones, - my frens, my family. n of coz my bf. buddha knows how much i love him. i'm not afraid to say, he's ranked no. 1, followed by my family n frens. not that they r not impt. becoz i want to treat him the way he treats me. told me that i'm no. 1 in his heart too. followed by his mum. its so obvious that he loves his mum alot, he's a very filial boy. but the way he expresses his love to me, its not thru words. its thru his actions. haha. sometimes he juz loves to disturb n make fun of me so much. but in a cute way. ahha. ok ok. sorry, not with the intention of making u gals envy here. juz wanna jot down that its been 4 yrs n 9 months, n we're still goin strong.[didnt know Agnes is so devoted ya?] it seems like a long time we've been tgt. but no, i still dun wanna get married yet. hahas. no pressure, coz i still sort of enjoy the attached but available status. not really 'available' as in ready for a new relationship. available as in, still havent married. haha.s... :P i'm crapping alot these days. but u know something.... i dun care. coz its my blog, my freedom of speech n my space down here... hahaah.. .............................B...................y.....................e................................. |
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