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Thursday, September 30, 20041:26 PM
i had a wrong slping posture last nite, n now i'm in a neck-breaking situation. i guess.
i cun tilt my head to the right n front. it hurts like i'm stabbed by some dagger. sharp pain. eh.. i had a gd nite slp except for this little incident. didnt feel super tired like yest. felt very fresh today. probably i didnt bathe yest morning, as i woke up late. *tilts head to front. Oucch. :( well, i'm goin shoppin today. most probably buying 2 pairs of slippers from anyways, out to lunch. :) |
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10:33 AM
hyp·no·sis
i dun believe in all that hypnotic diet shit. juz crap. saw on tv, on tues' guess x3 show. this taiwanese fella trying to hypnotise all the fat pple who wants to slim down. its so drama, all of them starts hating fried oily food after he says something. like kena spell. whr got such thing on earth. say a few sentences, then pple will listen so easily.
its all mental. its all up in ur head. *think. |
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Wednesday, September 29, 20048:30 PM
juz read rae's blog.
she's right abt certain things. i hav things to say, but i gotta go out now. suggest u pple take some time to read wat she has got to say. i mean, some really enlightening stuffs, her latest n previous entries. sorry rae, for asking pple to go read ur blog. but i think its rather meaningful, n thot mayb i could share it wif my frens. i used to think she's a talented n smart gal. now, she juz changed my opinion of her. she's more than a gal wif the capability to write. she's a thinker. i'm glad she has learnt some lessons of life after wat she's been thru. this entry is dedicated to u. she's a fren since my sec skool days, she slack alot. she dun let me go to her house. n she's still stickin to this rule. she's a very interesting fella. n i'm still very impressed wif her command of words at this point. alot of guys wants to know her, but no, she's not attitude by ignoring such pple. she's smart to do dat. all those guys who wanna know her r juz a waste of time. right rae? hhah. read abt her entry abt the pple n frenster n msn. she's cool. n she's sport, she plays soccer when all of u muz be thinking, does this gal know how to even kick a soccer ball/. she calls me out of a sudden once a while. n we chat for some time. she has a family nasilemak stall, under her name. how cool is that. she wants to go to hk wif her bf in nov. n she's saving up for it. she gets scholarship from np. n its those $1500 type. she's busy these few days, wif skool, projs, tests. alright, gotta stop. i'm like writing a testimonial for u here. haha. mayb if u ask me to add one, i'll copy from here n add it into frenster. lol. buck up my fren. study hard, i know skool is really stressful, n u still hav dat dreadful feelin everytime. dun worry, u hav frens who will lend u a listenin ear whenever u need it, juz ask for it. i'm one of the "ears" dat will be there if ever u need it alright. hope u get thru another 1yr n a half of skool. gotta say, i'm really sorry for not understanding u enuf. i guess, dats something i need to improve on. still lookin forward to more dinners wif u n lynn, n having lunch at my skool[coming skool term]... lookin forward to club, chill out[at cosybay?/] and more buddhist teachings from u! ahha. ps:/ when u gonna pass me the buddhist book u get from temple? i wanna read it~~..... i think u know urself pretty well. dats gd, at least u could improve on ur bad points. hope u n pjj will last, both of u r so cute. duno if u will hav time to read this entry, but i guess, its alright even if u missed it. i didnt say anything impt la. to rae: do i get a present from u after ur hk trip? hahaa. :X lolx. joking alright! :P take care buddy! |
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1:25 PM
Happy post mid autumn festival! Ahha. Abit late I know. I didn?t get to eat mooncake this yr. :( nobody buy for me. Ask my bf to buy one for me, he said, "take my house one la, I bought some wat." I wanna eat the crispy one wif yam no yolk n snowskin type de. Sighz. Is there anyplace dat sells mooncakes now? Will it be cheaper than normal? I strongly believe they should sell cheap n hav discounts for mooncakes now. by pass Tampines last nite....................... went to tua pek gong temple at loyang(near change village) to pray. Then went to get some drinks n dessert. N I had my fair share of carrying a lantern! Ahha. No. it doesn't sound kiddish at all. I got a paper lantern, pokemon one, free from the temple. So we went to dear's place playground n lit up the lantern. N as usual, he got bored after ard 15 mins. Was fun actually. Realized dat I like lanterns wif candles more then those battery operated ones. :)
I'm feeling really restless n tired in office now. So fast, 2 more days to end of the week. My eyes r half opened. Its been raining these few mornings. Very cold. *yawnz. I'm falling aslp.
left with abt 26 work days. Dats approximately a month. And 5 days. Oct has 21 work days.
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well, I was thinking of coming back to work during the upcoming skool holidays, after this itp is over. Y do I wanna work? Need $$ of coz. Cun depend on anyone else. Haiz. Probably I'll ask her if she needs any temp work for the coming holidays, on the last week of my itp. missing a type of snacks dat was sold by nestle. It's a type of rice crispies, white, milk one. N there's another chocolate one, wif the coco crunch monkey on the plastic cover. Used to love it a lot in sec. then it suddenly stopped producing. Else I would hav bought it every week man. Whr did it go? Hm.. hope it can come back, haha. there's a fan here. |
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Sunday, September 26, 20045:13 PM
caught white chicks on fri nite, very funny show. was laughing constantly. not many comedies have really been on my list of "best". so i'll say, this is one of them. was very very tired after the movie, i reached home at 3am n was suppose to meet the gals 9am at harbour front control.
woke up at 8am, waited for my bf's cousin to finish bathing. by the time i was done, its alrdy 845am. haa. woke dear up to send me there. on the way, mary called at 9am. mary:"r we suppose to meet at 9am?" me:"ya. I'm on the way." mary:"9am Singapore time?" me:"aaahhh.. ya. y?" mary:"how come there's no one here?anyway its ok la i juz called to complain." haha. sorry abt being late. i reached at 925. n mary, chunpei, yenwei n rhoda was there. proceeded to mac for breakfast. i love hotcakes! w sausage! hah. then came kim, sijia, n meijie. heard dat diana was joinin us, n she's alrdy at sentosa. wow. dat makes 9 of us. haha. dats kinda cool, as i only expected like 7 pple. surprised sijia would join us, haha, i know she's a light sleeper, n i purposely had the intention of wakin her up at 8am. msg-ed her gd morning. ahha. diana too, was another unexpected guest. hehe. she's there wif her sis n bro-in law havin chalet. 3 person only. weird. thanks to rhoda, meijie, kim, n mary for esp coming down. u gals know y la.. haha. if i had it, i would hav put u gals on aeroplane although i'm the "organiser". had loads of fun. played frisbee, volley, captains ball, em, water polo?/, whr everyone treats sj as the net. all aiming her.. wenta swim, tan. mj says i'm like mamy/nanny. hm.. i'm not dat old la. n sj wants to suan me by sayin i'm e oldest there. hey, i'm still 18 hor. as young as u r! hhaa. for another few months. oh, i'm aching like mad now. couldnt lift my hands up becoz it would seem like my skin is gonna stretch n break. got tan by 2 or 3 tones i guess. very obvious. haha. liked it. everyone said i look slightly betta. :P wonder y, its itchy the same time its aching. hm.. went laupasat after dat wif meijie n yenwei. ate the very so-not-delicious stingray wif white rice. ycuks. cooked by malay. i should've known betta. :( went taka to get bubble tea.[yeah!] mj n yenwei parted at 9. me n dear went back to jp to buy tix for the movie Resident Evil 2: apocalypse[spell?] was hatin dat movie initially, as it resembles scenes taken out from dawn of the dead. very disgusting n scary, like zombie movies. but after a while, the show was slightly betta. u get the plot, n u wun feel dat scary anymore. kinda hate those really scary/horror movies. realised i like comedies most. quite an interesting movie, wif the actions n all. yup. next movie i'm aiming is police story, but dear is not so keen, like i'm, not so keen abt RE2 la. i guess everyone muz be saying, i chiong movies so fast. haah. even junwen who is also another movie buff. i got nothing to do, n Sg is juz so friggin' boring. guess movies r the only way to kill time . goin out. ciao! :) .................i........wa..n..n..a.....g..o.....b...a...c..k...t....o....s...k.o..o.l............................... |
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Friday, September 24, 20041:35 PM
roaches.
hell. mind boggling incident this morning. i got up after a late nite of gb. haha. finally my com is stable enuf to play games! yeah. so happy. n i found the driver for my sound card. 6 months of waiting finally paid off. alright back to my topic. saw 2 roaches sticking their butts?/back tgt when i push open the door linking my rabbits to the kitchen. yesh, obviously they're making wat goes round, comes round. i'm a strong believer of that. i d/led some songs for my frens. n my frens did the same to me. i'm so glad to hav frens like them. esp wj. :) thanks gal. hangout-hotel. evon. ya. sorry to say, i dun really wanna spend the eve of hari raya puasa, celebrating at some confined hotel. haha. like i told u right, i think its like spending a day in jail, coz the place really small. i'd rather like to spend that day at East Coast Park? hehe. can pitch tents n enjoy sea breeze. somemore malays sure not there. as hari raya puasa, they need to stay at home. haha... :X :P chinese garden tonite? mayb. bus drivers. fcuking hate them. i hate inconsiderate drivers who drive their buses like some rally machine/cars. hell. accelerating n braking juz in time. they definitely didnt pass their physics. dun they know greater the mass, greater the stopping distance? longer the stupid braking distance. they break only when they r too close. n they accelerate n let go off the pedal, accelerate, let go,... juz makes us passengers so uncomfortable. have to sway as the bus moves. n the worst part of all is this, when they see someone running for the bus, n they closed their doors, they will not open it. they will try to pretend ur not there, n drive off. WTH right. one fella almost did it to me today. i ran for the bus, then he closed the door. i knocked on the door to make him open it. he looked at me in a weird way. fcuk him. he juz spoilt my mood for the morning. bastard. cun he think of pple who r gonna be late? n they dun fcukin give a damn abt who ever who made the effort to run to catch his house. fcuk all drivers like that. i've met few gd drivers though. n i respect them for dat. one gave me a free ride when i didnt have coins, some wait for me when i ran. thanks. sorry if anybody's relatives r bus drivers alright? dun mean to scold them all. i mean, there will always be black sheep. Singapore Idols - Unsung Heros. that guy in the top right corner of the unsung heros pic in the Sg Idol link. and that gal in the bottom left corner. both r my heros of the day[thursday]. some thots after catching this episode last nite. these 2 person are born with defects. i forgot both their names la. but the guy has a twin brother, n both of them r born with speech defect. so poor thing. meaning, they stammer alot when they speak, they cannot pronounce properly, cannot talk very normally. when they tok, their pronounciation might be a little weird, n this guy came to join Sg Idol, becoz he wants to prove dat pple wif speech defect can still sing, n tok normally. n the judges, being very nice, said this:"although u hav a speech defect, u can actually sing betta than some of the other contestants who r born w/o any defects. well done." *applause. wow. thats really heartwarming. they had bad times when they were kids. imagine classmates laughin at u for not being able to speak properly. they didnt want that themselves. i was very touched when Gurmit was interviewing him. i admire his courage. really. then this gal, whom i think was born deaf. so she used handsigns to sing. she did voice out. but her words were not very clear too. n both of them choose to do a duet for this episode. its really very touching. i mean, how much hav they gone thru wif these disabilities. juz imagine how lucky we r. the guy said:"its alright dat they used to laugh at us, wat if their children were born like dat?" its so heartwarming. my <3 goes out to both of them. n of coz there's this malay guy, who lost his father. he couldnt continue wif the competition due to family commitments. he sang very well too. but still got some jokers in the show which made me laugh so badly. the "careless whisper" guy. which sang in the first ever episode of Sg Idol. his voice is so soft, dat the tv actually showed the following captions:"dun adjust ur tv volume. this is the actual volume." hahaz. he is so funny. he sang the same song again. n he said dat e first time he sang, mediacorp didnt hav very gd sound system. so he sang very softly. the judges were laughin at him. he kept askin for comments. n the judges said:"we can hardly hear u, how to give comments?". hha. so funny. machi. machi rulez! their songs quite nice lo. despite everybody telling me not nice not nice. ahah. they rap super cute. :) Sentosa! yeah! goin sentosa tomoro! 8 pple confirm le. i still hav yet to ask the rest[seniors]. well. hopefully its not super packed, so we can play n not hav to find place to sit. might be goin chinese garden wif evon n jim, n dx later. but we'll see how. evon says meet at 6plus or 7. but, sky isnt dark, lanterns sure havent light up right? ahha. :P |
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1:47 AM
Welcome To My Life - simple plan Do you ever feel like breaking down?
No you don't know what it's like
this song almost clearly depicts how i felt like, 3 months ago. i'm over it now. i think its a very meaningful song. somehow, almost everybody could relate to it. i'm pretty confident abt dat. so. great song! :) kudos to simple plan for coming up wif such meaningful lyrics. |
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Tuesday, September 21, 200411:15 AM
almost overslpt today. put alarm at 725, 730, 735. each time it rang, i switch it off n continue slping. then i woke up at 745 n hurriedly went to bathe.
now i'm in office.. n i feel like slping. *yawnz. my eyes r slightly painful n red. duno wat happen to the vessels ard my pupils. acct of wat i did past few days. Sun: woke up at 3pm. switch on my com, used it all the way til 11plus. wow. pretty amazing. first time it didnt shut down. *guai com.. hm.. wat i could think of is that i changed my BIOS settings. i loaded the default, then it ran perfectly fine that day. probably i overclocked it when i changed the settings. had my dinner at 6pm n again at 12am. then i went to bed. Mon: after work, met dear. we went taka to eat. here's the list:
sounds like alot. mayb not. haha. only 2 of us. then we went lucky plaza to look at phones. then to kino... i found some really nice books. i think i'll be buyin them. but its those artists one la. meanin like jay chou, twins, etc. biography sort of thing. but its all really cute pics. hehe. :P went to this comic shop at paradiz centre. dear is the frequent customer there. we reached there at 8pm. but we left at 1030. was busy chattin with the auntie. well, actually me n dx quarrelled b4 we reach there. so we didnt start tokin til the auntie tok to us. were tokin abt stuffs happening ard in Sg. from houses, to Lee Hsien Loong, to calamities[spell?not the drink, natural disaster etc.], to Joo Chiat incident, to married couples, to reasons y couples quarrel, to work, and even to da ci da bei guan yin. lotsa topics right? well, the auntie is someone who has been there, done that, so she is sharin her experiences with us. the things she said r rather true, meaningful. then the news came on for quite some time. then we left that place. we started tokin again, as if nothin much happend. *phew. haha. :P went lau pa sat for supper. (we ate alot right?) ate fatman satay. nice. ordered 10 sticks. i finished e 4th one, n i'm so full alrdy. then dear met his fren at his place at bukitpanjang. he bought some car stuffs. then we went home. i'm startin to feel the stress. from upcomin napfa test. who on earth would feel stress over such a thing u might ask. hm.. well, i have the mentality to i might fail 2.4km. although i might not fail so easily, but its like i think i suck at running, but i really hope to get a silver or gold for this napfa. aarrgghh. help. i needa start jogging alrdy. the date is 16 oct. i'm left wif abt 3 weeks. i hope my timing would be ard 15mins. 1550 mins for a gold. well. i cannot imagine. i hate running.. :( i really have high hopes on this napfa, if my 2.4 were to fail me. think i'll be damn sad. gotta start goin to skool for runnin/jogging sessions alrdy. sux man. :( :( :( :( :( :( :( .......... |
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tiring day
Sunday, September 19, 20043:13 AM
wenta SP IBM concert on Fri nite. met sk, kai, phuay n her botak boy, xoxo. haven't been to any band concert b4, so didnt know wat quite to expect. but i think the band was great, quite entertaining, esp the percussions part.
liked the "kabe", "pirates of the carribean", n "i believe in music". hm.. ehz.. i think the conductor, was rather hyper, n moving here n there whenever the music needs to go to a higher pitch[excuse my use of terms, band members, i'm not muscially inclined/educated.] etc.. but he looks kinda smart n cute! haha. :P was tokin abt stealin his big doraemon plushie from the stage when he went back stage after the concert ended. ahah.. dear came to fetch me, n we went lau pa sat with abi n xian to eat. was tokin abt movies etc. then we went caltex to fil up the petrol tank. wenta west coast mac, then went home. was feelin rather tired alrdy, having late nites n long days consecutively. he was watchin 2 fast 2 furious dvd which he bought tat evening, n he turned ard n caught me half aslp, n he said:"tired huh?/ go slp ba.." haha. i turned ard n slpt. he woke up at 1030, prepared n went to work. i continued slping, n recieved lynn's sms in the afternoon, askin me wat was my plan for the day. me n dx's mum cleaned up his room, changed his bedsheets, vacuum n mop his room. then i left his place. meeting lynn at jurong. rae was busy doin her stuff, so she decided not to meet us. wenta far east to eat, then hurriedly shop here n there. i was kinda in the mood to get a board shorts/surfer shorts- watever u call it, but its so darn ex. aArrggh. i'm left with 1/5 of my pay alrdy. how to buy.. :( hmpf. realise that coming weekend, i would need ta spend again. :( though i think it will be fun. so.. counter that. jia, if u go, i promise not to throw u in the water ok? i'll take ur place n volunteer willingly, no questions asked if they say they wanna throw u in the water. but i doubt they'll be that bad .. ahha. really hope u'll go. em.. dun work la.. ur cousin so bad, ask u work on ur bday. anyways. got more things ta tell ya.. had a really bad dream. no. not dream. nitemare. consists of 3 parts. kinda messed up, u know wat dreams r like right, abit of here, abit of there. here's wat i remember:
here's the gross part. my body is so covered up with blood, duno who's blood[make a guess?].. n i'm so naked. i'm not covered with anything at all. cun remember who r the ppl who went to see my body. couldnt see my face, [luckily i didnt] most prob i'll freak myself out. its covered with my hair. fcuk. disgusting dream man. seems like a scene taken out of some horror/psychotic movie. yuCk.s i wonder wat it means. horrific. terrifying. sick. remember readin somewhr that when u dreamt of death, symbolises a new begining in ur life. hm.. wonder wat begining. was thinkin of strikin it rich with 4-D? almost wanted to buy 4-D today. aha. but didnt la. so lazy. reached home at 12plus. feelin very tired. blog n chatted with some pple. feelin hungry. think i'm gonna cook kuay chap to eat now. catch up will ya'll later. *yawnz. |
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forget n live.
Friday, September 17, 200411:37 AM
the next time people tells me that they'll try to forget someone, something, who was once impt to them, i would not believe it. totally. if that person was someone who was once impt to u, i bet my toes that its not juz a easy job of saying u will try to forget him/her.
but then again, mayb u could? like.. after a long long time? 1 year? how could anyone forget things like that?as in so easily? unless wat u guys went thru r juz superficial.. right? if not, i really doubt the relationship btw the couple. sometimes i wonder, y do pple live? do they live for themselves? or live for their loved ones? or abit of both? living for urself is like a selfish way of thinking, wheareas living for ur loved ones is a noble way? no way. i'm slightly selfish, i live abit for myself, abit for my loved ones. i live for myself, how do i justify it? - i wanna buy clothes for myself, i wan things for myself, i wan a cap, hp, jeans, shoes, money. but... wait, these are wants. not needs. if u ask if i live for such things, obviously its not. i think i live for food. haha. gd food. ya. thats wat i live for, n basically having fun. i wanna hav fun all the time. i've heard of pple who live for their love ones.. its like they work n earn, but the $$ will end up goin to the family members. like a guy who is tryin to support his younger brother thru college n eventually Uni. if i'm the younger brother, i would be so compelled to study hard, n work hard juz to repay my brother. then there's other stories of pple who work to support everyone else in the family, he himself doesnt get any fun, entertainment. basically he's juz living to support his family. to me, its like he dun have a life. if thats the case, probably i'll die long ago. i dun like this feeling. at least if i think i live for myself, i would be slightly more motivated. its selfish, but if i'm the family, i would feel selfish too, that i need to rely on somebody to help me, resulting in that poor fella not being able to lead his life. but then again, if the guy himself think its worth it, gd for him. lucky for his family. i might not be able to do that. i live for my loved ones, - my frens, my family. n of coz my bf. buddha knows how much i love him. i'm not afraid to say, he's ranked no. 1, followed by my family n frens. not that they r not impt. becoz i want to treat him the way he treats me. told me that i'm no. 1 in his heart too. followed by his mum. its so obvious that he loves his mum alot, he's a very filial boy. but the way he expresses his love to me, its not thru words. its thru his actions. haha. sometimes he juz loves to disturb n make fun of me so much. but in a cute way. ahha. ok ok. sorry, not with the intention of making u gals envy here. juz wanna jot down that its been 4 yrs n 9 months, n we're still goin strong.[didnt know Agnes is so devoted ya?] it seems like a long time we've been tgt. but no, i still dun wanna get married yet. hahas. no pressure, coz i still sort of enjoy the attached but available status. not really 'available' as in ready for a new relationship. available as in, still havent married. haha.s... :P i'm crapping alot these days. but u know something.... i dun care. coz its my blog, my freedom of speech n my space down here... hahaah.. .............................B...................y.....................e................................. |
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Thursday, September 16, 20042:49 PM
was in skool yesterday evening, fillin up cheryl, beeling n jane's cards. bought bbt. was listenin to hx toking. then lynette n yenwei said that i looked old. hm.. i hope they dun really mean it. like? haha. i corrected them with e word 'mature'. but they were so damn direct, shouted 'NO' back to me instantly.
nvm.. cheryl said i look different. haha. well, pple in my lecture halls, whom i eat lunch with everyday doesnt get to see me in my netball attire, n pple in my netball team doesnt get to see how sloppy i dress at times. so.. kinda balance? understood wat they meant la. anyway, sj, do take care of ur belongings alright? does this happen alot to u? dun mean to upset u further, but losing 3 things in a matter of 2 months is quite terrible [i see u nodding ur head].. please keep ur stuff safely, n muz also think that if there is a risk of it being stolen, or misplaced at whichever place u decide to leave it at. dun worry abt returnin e money to me, juz take ur time alright. wat i'm more concerned of is u havin enuf $ to eat or not, coz u dun intend to tell ur family?.. if u need anything, feel free to call me, i'll try to help out in whichever way i can. sorry abt telling hx n abi that u lost ur wallet, dun mean to be a bigmouth, my intention was to let them know that, losin ur wallet is wat caused u to be unhappy. at least pple know y u r upset, n for which ever reason... promise to write a card for ya ok.. although the contents would be so different, n mayb it wun be that impt to u as hx's card is.. haha.. so.. sorry if i tried to act clever n handle things my way. hope u're feeling alot betta today. n the sentosa trip, pls try to go alright? peiling asked me to go chinablack with her on sat, tgt with lynette. [do i see evon putting up her hands?/] haha. dx is working on sat liao. i think..... i might want to go.. its a different crowd this time round. haha. evon~~ do u wanna go?? lolx.. been awhile since i went clubbing.. let me know on fri or sat afternoon. ;) watched dodgeball, rather funny show. its really a dumb show, but its really quite fun if u're in for a gd laugh. ate pepper crabs at lau pa sat after the movie. n reached home at 115am. washed up n went to bed immediately. was very very tired. think i'll go home n take a nap today.. think i need slp.. i've been drinkin bubble tea non-stop for like 1week plus alrdy? probably since 10-15 days ago.. wonderin how much sugar i've accumulated in my body.. should drink more plain water to lessen the sugar lvl in my body. cun wait for the sentosa trip on sat. hahh. hope all the gals can make it. hav quite high hopes for it, coz almost 8-10 pple in e team says they're able to make it. ;) ........................d.....u....n..........o....w.a.....t.....e...l...s..e...t..o...sa......y.....so......c.....i......a..o......... |
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Wednesday, September 15, 20045:17 PM
hm.. i thot i juz screwed up my template big time.
was in a shock when i saw my blog in white. haha. did some tiny changes, wanted to hav a little change. but was a big failure. nvm. i'll try it when i'm free again. going to watch dodgeball later on in the nite. very tired today. coz didnt slp well again. fell aslp halfway while watching guess guess guess last nite. hope the movie will make me laugh? its rated the most hilarious movie of the yr? well. i'll c abt that. i wan my marimo! haha. yup junnie. emma says can get it from heeren. can we let them mate? lol marimo do reproduce u know. haha. but not in the way living creatures does. i think they r like mitosis sort of thing. haha. is it mitosis? anyway. didnt touch bio for that long. so, pardon me. ________________________________________________________________ ahhhhhh! shit. was falling aslp.. n tryin to link up the cells in the excel doc. then i wanted to scroll up, but i click on the "x" button to close it. accidentally. then the pop up appear: "do u wanna save xx file?" "yes", "no", "cancel". fcuk. i click on "no". that was how slpy i was. FCuk! now i wasted one whole day! i didnt save at all! fcuk man! one day of work gone to waste. nbz. luckily its not urgent man. wah lao ehz. gonna die man. imagine its my project.. n i did this. i sure cry. haiz. fcuk man. gonna go open up again n continue doin liao. fcuk this thing! aRRRGGGHHH!! |
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Tuesday, September 14, 20044:54 PM
let me organise my thots. i got really bored waitin for e big excel doc to link up the cells, so here's some self created entertainment.
how do u spell/pronounce the big book shop? da zhong shu ju. popola. popular. ya. thats right. no wonder i duno how to spell. it sounds so singlish. po-pu-le, pronounces "popular". hm.. i know there's a 'r' somewhr in e word, but i juz duno whr to put it. i always hav problems spellin this word, every since i got to know of its existence. popular. the 'ar' behind makes me confused. try pronouncin it again. po-pu-lar. if u take it one step at a time, u get the singlish version of popular. get me? stupid bkstore. damn obiang name. hm.. ya.. lame.. [i know..i dun care~]. wats a marimo? anybody knows? alright. here's some bit of info. www.marimo.com.hk - 幸�海�� here's a link with more info: http://www.aquariumplant.com/cgi-bin/cart/mi268.html marimo = algae ball. scientific name = Cladophora aegagropila. n its a special Japanese Natural Treasure. how cool is that. not as cute as i thot pics: http://www.plantgeek.net/images/plantpics/cladophora.jpg http://www.plantgeek.net/images/plantpics/Cladophora2.jpg http://www.plantgeek.net/plantguide_viewer.php?id=199 its this green algae look alike water plant. shape of a furball. haha. my fren, emma, juz got one, n i'm feelin rather excited for her. haha. duno y. i think it sounds cute. then.. there's a private side joke of me n weijun trying to act like a marimo.... *trys to float like a marimo. *acts like a marimo trying to sing dong jie after zappin into linda. *trys to roll ard like a marimo. *laughs like a marimo. yes yesh. its all up to ur own imagination. god knows wat we could come up with next? *eat like a marimo? *dress like a marimo? imagine how lame i could be. i can go on forever. haha. *sticks out tongue like a marimo. it seems to be able to display certain unique characteristics, behaviours. hence, me n wj r tryin to display wat a marimo can act like, thru all our jokes. hhaha. get it? ;P makes me wanna get one myself alrdy. haha. i juz couldnt decide on the color of the container, or the kinda blessing that i want. luck, love, money or studies. [p/s: i want all 4. but they dun hav rainbow color type of container. ;( ] hm. ahh.. i conditioned my hair last nite. now it feels so much betta. i'm always lazy to spend extra time to condition, unless i'm really early for a date. imagine me being late half or more of the time, whr do i find time to condition sia. haha. anyway, my hair feels so 'new'. at least i dun feel stupid now, slightly proud that my hair is not so bad after all. hahaz. -out- |
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Happy birthday Cecila 'mama duck' !
11:44 AM
Happy birthday Cecila 'mama duck'
an account of wat i did after work, resulting in me reachin skool only at 8pm. haha after work, saw huixian, at the clinic juz outside of boon lay control. she was there to see the docter, bcoz of gastric. i thot she had fever. scared me for a while. then yiwen did this card, to give her for her bday. sweet of her. me:"r u alright? need me to accompany u? if not, then i go first, cya in skool later." hx:"huh? orh, i'm ok. dun need to accompany me la. cya later." i hurry to jp, suppose to wait for lynette at the control. but somehow, expected, she was late. but late for a gd reason la. so i dun blame her. went jp to develop to photos, express service. thinkin of wat 3 other misc photos to develop. needed 17 prints of the team photo, one for each of us. then i decided on 2 pics with meijie n lynette in it, n one with sj's cool hair. haha. walked ard, tryin to see wat cake to buy, bought tissues. then finally they called, saying they reached. peiling, lynette n chun pei were here. went shopping for 10 mins, then went to kopitiam for them to hav their dinner. then me n chunpei went popula[spell?], to get the paper for us to write our wishes n greetings. its with me now. mostly done. left with me, amy, sj n diana's wishes nia. went back to fdcourt, they started writing the wishes. me n kimiko(who reached not long after) went to collect photos, buy a oreo cake. 1kg. i thot more than 8 of us eating, but turns out only 8 were present. haha. quickly finish with watever they hav to write, then we hop on the train. 5 of us, but they wanted to take cab. n i'm like:"take mrt is as fast as takin train, coz very near only." sj was calling n rushin us, call us to take cab. ahha. sorry made u buy so many bubble tea ya? thanks alot for the tea. really. hehe. feel so lucky to drink bubble tea. wahaha. [wat crap m i saying?] anywayz, reached skool abt 805? hx wanted to tok to us. i thot more pple wun come. but only half the team were there. 7 of us. hx very sweet, tok of things n the ivp games, esp the one on fri, which she missed becoz she went batam[not Thailand] for her company D&D. hm.. she gave each of us something real cute. n its really like a new culture to 7 of us. we called her "elva cecila mama duck." hehe the rest will understand on wed la. lolx. she's so darn funny lo. keep makin us laugh. then she still very smart. n i think her reflexes damn gd! u wann sabo her, u need to be as fast as her. i think not many pple could be two 3rds as fast as she reacts. so, almost no chance to sabo her. haha. made her ate the big piece of cake.. n gave her a big purple card which lynette draw on behalf of all of us. its really fun, n sj was busy snapping pics of her eating, mouth opening, licking the choc, n carryin the big card like a walking advertisement. lolx. we were out to embarrase her despite a game goin on in the backgrd. who cares abt the game? ahha. mama duck/eating/having fun more impt. anyway i wrote a really long well wishes part for her, havent transfer over to the red card yet. think on wed, everyone will get to c the card, for those who werent there on mon. summary: i had lots of fun, although quite disappointed that so many didnt turn up. but i'm the sort of person who is like, : even if nobody comes, i'll juz take things into my own hand, n create fun myself. so, haha, hope to c the rest of the team on wed. so hx can de-brief, n we could probaly intro a new anthem for sp netball. lolx. *starts singing "ah haa.. qu ba, mei she me liao bu qi.." haha =X p/s: sj,i think i should share the cost of u buying bubble tea for sheryl n jane.. etc etc. n i havent paid u mine share lo. thanks for the bubble tea again! so nice of u. :] oh ya, paiseh that while u were sendin me the 8mb folder, my msn close n i didnt realise.. coz i was bathing.. sorry ya. try to send me when u c me online ok?. thanks gal. hm.. decided to do away with the title for all my blogs from now on. will add a title if i only think its necessary. dun like the idea of having a new 'story' everyday. ya. so. be back to blog if there r any interesting stuffs. ciao~ |
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for the netballers.
Monday, September 13, 20043:35 PM
I really felt myself gave up on the team after the 1st quarter. i'm sorry that i had a i'm-pissed-off-look on fri.
i really felt that everyone else gave up on the team too. made me felt really down. its the last game, n we're facing yet another strong opponent. NYP. first quart, n they r leading 17-2. it sucks. everyone had a really slack attitude, includin myself. not that anyone is to be blamed for this. we're expecting to lose, n we didnt really put up a gd fight at all. the SMU game was when we displayed wat was called a gd fight. Sorry Sj, and everyone else, i shouldnt hav gave up, but something happened that changed my attitude right after 1st quart. shouldnt say wat or who. its juz fault on both sides. pls dun ask wat/who. Sorry Rhoda, that i made u said something out of frustration. i think its like a air borne disease tat spreads. the mentality that is. if someone is feelin down, n nobody does anything to help/cheer, then it might go from one person to the other, n ended up affecting the whole team. Sorry Abi, for making u worry etc. thanks for ur concern ya. :]
not that anyone of them whom i mentioned will be reading this. its juz a post-game feeling. oh, someone juz made my day! offered to buy bubble tea for me! haha. thanks Sj! ;] so nice of u to offer to go home to take the cam n buy bubble tea. thank U!!! *grins hope we hav fun tonite!! ahaha. feelin rather cheerful now. hehe... be back to blog tomoro! ;) - PEACE! - |
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life sucks without frens.
10:00 AM
i'm suffering from Monday blues.
woke up with the thot of cursing every goddamn person on earth. fcuk. fcuking hell. fcuking shit. fcuking monday. few disturbing/interesting stuffs that happened over the weekend. Disturbing /?
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winning/conquering?
Friday, September 10, 200411:29 AM
Pierre de Coubertin said: "The most important thing in the Olympic Games is not winning but taking part; the essential thing in life is not conquering but fighting well." duno who the hell that fella is. well, this sentence juz express how i felt. gd luck today! anyway.. juz realise i didnt take alot of pics dur' yesterday's outing with my baoz.. hm.. was busy switchin on n off the camera, n eating.. wahaha.. nevertheless.. will upload some of the pics |
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my bubble tea!! ;(
1:44 AM
feeling sad. coz i lost my bubble tea. any volunteers to buy me one? feel so sad coz i lost my beloved bubble tea. not as in i lost in by leaving it somwhr, but as in i lost it coz i was rather clumsy.
was walkin/following the crowd goin to boon lay mrt this evenin after work, then this stupid bangladeshi bumped into me, makin me drop my bubble tea. *cries. ;( the tea cup drop on the floor, and the bubble tea spread all over the place. with the pearls. ;( feel so upset becoz of that. not that i dun hav money to buy. but as in, its meant to be mine.. but it actually slipped away from my fingers. *sobz. alright. i'll get myself a new cup on sat. i promise. *hmmppphh.. wonder how could anyone get upset over the slightest stupid thing? coz i have very simple expectations. i m satisfied very easily. even if getting a pack of choc could change my mood for the day. sk n karen would know? haha =X anyways. met up with my baoz for dinner. had alotta fun.. laughing n laughin.. n eatin n eating. feel so full now! |
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netball netball netball.
Thursday, September 09, 200410:00 AM
I love everybody on the team!
Great play, good team spirit. Excellent game basically. Juz a little wasted that we didnt manage to hold on in the 2nd quart. 1st quarter: 6 - 4 to SP (we led by 2 here) 2nd qurater: 7 - 16 to SMU (we lost by alot 12- 1) 3rd quarter: 13 - 21 to SMU (we mange to lead in this quarter 6 - 5) last quarter: 20 - 28 to SMU (draw in this quarter 7 -7 ) arrghh. we were this close --> <-- Come to think of it, we would hav been able to win. We were actually on par or even led them in 3 quarters. nevertheless, its still the work on court that counts. not the score. Again, Thanks to huixian, for being some an encouragin coach. u'll never know that the things u said, might have made a difference to our players. Never mind that hx is still inexperienced, not been very strict. I think she has the makings of a gd coach. she reads the game well, n is still a player herself. one impt thing is that she is still very young, n still has time to learn abt coaching. all the coaches out there who bears something against her, juz give her a break. she is as gd a coach as any of u can be. dun understand y the old pple got something against the young ones. in this case, y many coaches dun like my coach. jealous that my coach is able to bond well with us? jealous that she is nice and all? yeah. u all betta be. u narrow-minded coaches with grudges that u can carry to ur grave. hope that the grudges will make u a worser person, and let everyone realise wat a lousy personality u hav. Thanks to all the players in the team. from defenders, chun pei, yen wei, amy, marianna aka mary, lynette, me, to midfielders, abi, kimiko, meijie, peiling and lastly to shooters, sijia, rhoda, diana and joyce. understand that some of u gals were sad after the game, but hey, effort put in has been recognised, so dun worry n be sad that much anymore. especially to meijie, yenwei, rhoda and sijia. u gals did very well, dun reprimand urself if u mis-pass/didnt put in the shot, coz its the team that lost, not only u individually. took some pics yest. was having so much fun. will upload it tonite. :] oh ya, we should hav a team dinner on fri, after the game. hope all of u gals will go. love ya all. gd luck for Fri's game. PEACE. |
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orange tiger (roArRrr... )
Wednesday, September 08, 20043:30 PM
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busybody - me.
Tuesday, September 07, 200410:10 AM
at some point in time, i hav this feelin of wanting to reach out to certain pple. this is not the first time i felt this way. n i know its definitely not the last of it.
the last time i tried, i think it was like a rejection. now, i fear being rejected again. mayb i'm juz too busybody. i shouldnt even care abt how they are. i should juz leave them alone. they will do fine without me, or anybody who wants to reach out to them in fact. i've noticed, the pple whom they care abt most, will be the only ones who is able to motivate them. its a simply logic. everyone wants to display their best in front of the pple who matters alot to them. however much amnt of encouragement we gave has never even reached them. everyone has been encouragin in one way or another. but they juz dun feel it. i dun understand y. perhaps my simple logic is right. only voices of those who matter will be able to reach them. all other noise will be filtered out. i shouldnt make myself look like a fool anymore tryin to tok sense. i'm juz gonna give up. |
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sad.
8:47 AM
I'm juz plain upset over last nite's game.
I dun wanna tok abt it anymore. The team has been great overall, but there r I've heard things I shouldnt hear. Juz hope its me being over-sensitive. If thats not the case, all I can say is that, I'm rather pissed off, very upset over yesterday's display of attitude. Thanks to hx for being such a nice coach, no pressure on us at all. Its our own fault that we are so much trashed by NUS. My bro is being nice to me. bro : "Aiya, NUS all quite old, u all so young, so cannot be considered trashed la, they all at least 19yrs of age, while your team maximum only 19." me : "maybe lo, no choice they too strong liao." Thanks to all the players who played hard, n tried their best. Its not abt the score. Its abt the players. No communication at all, yet there isnt any attempt to resolve this. Does anybody feel the same? Thanks to Rhoda for making the effort to call me up upon sensing something is wrong with me. Thanks to Mei Jie n some others in the team. didnt hav a gd nite slp yest. dear said i was turning here n there like i hadnt fell aslp at all. he asked me some time in the middle of the nite. probably early morning, saying: "did u actually slp at all?" i was quite shocked n worried dat i said:"i didnt slp meh? dun scare me, coz go office sure very tired." Score: 56 - 9 to NUS |
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Game tonite.
Monday, September 06, 200411:30 AM
I'm gonna be organising the trip to Sentosa for my fellow netballers. I know i've been saying it for like months, so i'm gonna start planning.
Was toking to Rhoda on the phone, asking when's her exams, test so that i can plan the date w/o clashing with their test week. Rhoda :"dress code is bikini hor." me :"haha! i no bikini, but if u buy one for me, i'll wear! haha. Anyway i no figure leh." Rhoda :"Really? U really dare to wear? u got figure wat, u so skinny." me :"I skinny meh, flat chested, cannot wear bikini la, think mayb can consider getting tankini." hahas. She's a chrisitian. Somehow, i think she's one of the nicest christians i've met. sweet, cute but still quite lame. me :"U feeling betta now?U get this all the time?" Rhoda :"Ya, feelin slightly betta but still abit dizzy. Used to get this when i was in sec skool. but the kallang training 2 weeks ago was like the first in such a long time. " Alright. I called up a few others, n i think it should be on a Sat morning, probably 2nd or 3rd week when the term break ends. Gd Luck to me n my team for the game tonite! Vs NUS. ShuCks. its tough, but we'll do our best. *keep my fingers crossed. some recent n old pics:  
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tiring weekend.
10:05 AM
Fri - after work, dear fetched me and we head to orchard. Intend to catch AnacondaS. He waited at the cine open carpark while I walked up to check the show time. Bought tix for the 745pm show. He parked at cineleisure, then I met him at the lift lobby. Walked to taka, bought a lot of food, bubble tea, durian puff, Japanese fried noodle, chocs.
Met Karen n Sk at 7pm. I was sitting juz outside Yoshinoya. Then they came, we went Perlini's to get some accessories. The store was so packed. Y? coz of the 3 day 40% off promo. Yup. The store wouldn’t be half pack if there was no sale. Singaporeans r juz so practical. But no choice, even us youngsters have to be kiasu, so auntie, juz to get gd deals, to get gd stuffs at a gd price. to Kai n Ms Miao: I know I very bad, cheated u all to come down to Orchard, then left u gals for my movie. But I really dun wan u all to go City hall anymore. Its so boring there. Suntec, Marina. We are always meeting there. Haha.. Paiseh ya. Sometimes, I do things purposely even when I know I'm a bit bad. It cun be helped, that's juz me. Being gd is juz so plain boring! :P I think I'm not making any sense, but I dun care. Coz that's juz how I m, how I live my life. fcuk ang mo(s)! blardi rowdy rough idiotic kids making themselves look like stupid gangsters. Fcuking hate cineleisure for that matter. Everywhr I turn, its juz so infested with ang mo(s) insects. yCuks. Irritating. Stupid kids. Tryin to act like they are having so much fun, when infact they r juz lookin so pathetically noisy. Makes me feel like goin to Jurong Point only if I wanted to catch a movie. I hate them becoz they look down on Asians, n u will neva believe how racists they r. they have these fcuking irritating attitudes that I encountered dur' the Avril's concert I went to. Shouldn't talk so much abt these bugs anymore. Juz increases my hate and resentment towards them. I juz hav an antagonistic approach towards malays and ang mo(s), dun ask me y, juz think abt some of the attitudes most of them possess. Born troublemakers to me. After the movie, was feelin quite tired already. But still went to 7-eleven at west coast, to get some supplies/ration that dear needed. He sent me home to pack my bag for Sat morning's training, while he went to yi-hao pasar to get mee kia. The noodle is so gd that I have cravings for it every 3 days or so. Went back to his place, ate n I went to bed. He was watching "yi tian tu long ji" on dvd. Sat - woke up at 710, meeting abi at 815. sure gonna be late for training, but the thing is, even if reach early also no key coz Jane will also be reaching late. Got the key from Jane, then proceeded to the court. Everybody was there already. Feelin abt guilty for being late, but as I mentioned, no Jane = no key. I walked into the toilet, all of them were there. they called me "mei nu" sia. Shouldn't explain y. haha. Warm up: 3 rds ard the track, last 2 rds stride last 100m. wondered if I completed it within 9 mins? Still feeling nervous for the napfa test coming up next month. I'm determined to get lesser than 16 mins for my 2.4km run. Shall go training after ivp. hx arrived after our run. Did some ball drills, usual L-shape, trampline, square, shutter. Abi left for her itp briefing, while sj n lynette arrived. Did down the court, n really felt that hx is a rather effective coach. Whatever she said juz seems to go into my head n stay for gd. It juz didn't happen with the previous coach. The previous coach was a guy and age gap was another probability. I juz like training more n more, coz of the bond we build up during these few weeks of training. Amy, abi, peiling, was missing coz they were working. Played 4 quarters with lab 10. mostly the junior team, and our shooters aka Sj did a great job that day! Shooting was like 80% accurate dur the match! Hehe. Impressive stuff. Had fun, got tanned by a mere tone. Trainin ended at 12plus. Rhoda was feelin dizzy again. That she sorta couldn't walk. We walked over to acc her. Her dad was comin to fetch her back. Think the sun is juz too drainin on her. This is the 2nd time she felt like this. First was the sat afternoon trainng at kallang 2 weeks back. I think she has low blood pressure aka ping xue. But she said she don't know also. She thanked us for not leaving her behind, then walked to the carpark while we waited for I couldn't spell Marianna at all. My first attempt is simply : mary + anna. I think I wrote that when I was suppose to spell her name. haha n she went like: "which fella spell my name this way?" made me laugh. Haha.. :X Yenwei, meijie n Diana went to bathe. I joined them in the toilet after passing some stuffs to Jane. Were talking abt havin lunch tgt after Diana left. So 3 of us went Fc4 as its air-conditioned. Had quite a gd chat. But all abt netball la. Kinda miss WaiChing, YuMin, Yi Ling and Carely. Hope they will come back after ivp. Went to jp after parting with them at the mrt station. Bought bubble tea, straits times. Went home to rot. Didn't go out that day. Was feelin really tired n drained from the morning training. I wanted to juz lie on the floor n slp. But recalling I got stung by a stupid ant while I lie on the floor to slp some months back, probably coz I really smell n like offended the stupid ant in any way, I decided to juz read the papers first, then go n bathe. Listening to radio n songs on my com the whole day long. Evon came up at 1am, to transfer some files from her hp to my com. Coz I have the infra red USB port which I still haven return to Wai Leong. She had a hair cut, n I thot I it looks pretty gd. I have a different way of expressing myself, I cun express well if u want me to say something in person. I can only type everything out. I said something like: "this pic is nice! U stupid gal." haha. She went back when jimmy was here to fetch her. I went to bed. 
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memememe.
Friday, September 03, 20044:55 PM
This is wat i think i wanna put. my name in hindi. but i still duno whr to put it yet. at least i got an idea of wat i want.
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lazy. n glad.
Thursday, September 02, 20041:43 PM
haha. wat a surprise. wanted to surprise emma at her place. but when she open the door, she already knew wat we were doing. lolx. had a gd chat at her place, after we force her to remove cherries from the cake that we had squashed/remixed. paiseh to make her teeth pain. me n mich were alittle too rough. her front teeth hit the stone table in her living room. it was so loud. like: "THUD.." haha.. thanx to mich for sending us home. it was late. reached home at 145am. suppose to wake up at 710.
was toying with the idea of setting up a blog for destiny+. hm.. provided everyone got acc at blogspot. so.. wj, val n me has it. left clar, mich n emma. if my com is repaired, then i'll go in search of a template la. a simple one will do. =) hehe. surprised that i didnt fall aslp in office today. i slpt late some more. was busy working on an excel macro. haha. done quite alot. almost halfway, most probably can finish tomoro. dun wann give my sup to sign the log book this week. think after 13th sept then give. coz i dun wanna spoil my mood, goin for ivp next week. i'll pull a super long face again if i gonna get C. but then again, its expected, but i'll still feel sad right? so ignore me if i keep lamenting abt it. got my pay today! yeah! asked my dad for a new phone. of coz he wun reject me, but i should use my own $$ to buy right? NO!! haha. i dun have enuf to use! so still gotta depend on him. treat it as an early present for me.. ahhaa or i'll ask him to get me a digital camera. i've been relying on my dad too much, that its alittle overboard. but i duno. it's juz me. i'm lazy to think. lazy lazy lazy. Oh ya. i wanna shift house. haha. hope can get the new house next month. as in, bid for it. Hope can get the house. then i'll hav a room of my own! wanted to say "so happy", but then betta not pin high hopes, juz in case they are false hopes. yup. but i'll still look forward to it! its all up to me to get the new house. coz mummy's push everything for me to do. [which i hate alot].. juz becoz her english isnt as powerful as mine, then she pushes everything to me. i've got this new mindset recently, thats to avoid trouble. as in avoid all the very troublesome things. keep things simple. thats quite equivalent to being lazy, but avoiding trouble is a nicer way to put it. feelin glad today. =] |
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